Chengdu, who will sleep with you tonight?

Chengdu, who will sleep with you tonight?

Maybe there is no city that makes me so familiar like you. Even if it is called Yizheng or Yangzhou in my hometown, I get acquainted with it after I leave home and go to school. However, Chengdu, which I had been to since I was five or six years old, has carved deep imprints in my life, like the wound on my mother, which cannot be erased. In every hot summer, I fled to Chengdu like a summer resort, which made me unable to adapt to the summer in my hometown for several years later. I am used to taking the direct sleepers with green skin and general speed in Nanjing railway station, and I am used to the narrow space of the upper sleepers, which can touch the roof when I raise my hand. I like to hear the rumbling sound of the rails and fall asleep gently, and suddenly wake up when I stop at a certain site. Seeing the passengers coming up again, they were in a hurry, speaking their own dialects and laughing heartily. I met a girl from Chengdu who went to university in Nanjing. At that age, I should call her sister, which made me guess her brain teaser. I once met a grandma, because I insisted on changing the upper berth with her and took good care of me inexplicably, so I was invited to eat rabbit meat for the first time in my life. I also met an uncle who told him the heroic deeds of a car and told me that he was a policeman when he was about to get off, and let me touch his gun and bullet. Of course, I also met the flight attendants who made me hate them, yelling at me, because I accidentally stretched my feet and tripped her. I like to sit by the window and see a big mountain approaching slowly from a distance and then getting further. I like to guess whether there will be a cave in the mountain ahead. I remember when I was a child, my mother said that the cave was a ghost’s mouth, and if I didn’t obey, I would be eaten by it. Therefore, I did not dare to sit at the window or go to the toilet when entering the cave for a long time. Later, I gradually liked it: in the quiet late night, the lights of the whole carriage had gone out, and I sat at the window to see the night scene of the car body passing. The moon hung high above, alone and bright. Can’t hear insects frog, only hear whoosh way and move on. At night, the station was still noisy and crowded. The tired expression on the passenger’s faces could be seen. I remember that the terrain of Chengdu was surrounded by many heavy mountains. When climbing the Qinling Mountains, it would take two carriages to hold it. I remember that the sunrise in Qinling Mountains was very hazy with extremely low temperature. The clouds were so close that they twined around the mountainside. When the train passed Xi’an, it was shocked by its long city walls, imagining the so-called Chang’an and Chang’an. What kind of scene did it look like hundreds of years ago? It took two days and two nights to arrive in Chengdu. I felt so familiar when I heard the Sichuan dialect with a crooked tone, and felt very fragrant when I smelled the spicy smell. Eating hot pot and spicy hot pot is the happiest thing in my life. The landlady called me a nickname, which was really nice. Her pickles were delicious. Amusement park, zoo, People’s Park, Tianfu Square, statue of Chairman Mao, Tianqiao, KFC, underground shopping mall, Chunxi Road, home coarse grain King, xianglaokan, Jinniu Hotel, No. 43 and No. 98 left, maybe I will never set foot in your land again in this life. I remember I remember I miss it very much, Chengdu, who will sleep with you tonight?

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Heart Brigade

Go to the outside world! I often have the idea of going far away. Because I really want to explore the mysteries of nature, appreciate the variety of material civilization and share the extensive and profound knowledge brought by spiritual civilization. However, I have no money and can’t set foot in the distant place. The distant place is only an extravagant hope for me; The temptation of material civilization is always in my heart, but I have no reason to enjoy it; the paleness of cultural deposits and the noisy world forced me to stung myself in the shabby room and construct the spiritual civilization which might be false with humble thoughts and superficial writing style, although I know this is far from the Spiritual Civilization of the colorful world, she is still extensive and profound to me. In the days when nobody cared about it, I started my heart journey. Looking forward to the distance, I was sailing in the electromagnetic ocean with my eyes, and the wonderful pictures which were switched quickly on the TV screen bombarded my vision wildly; Living in a shabby room, I still weave the wish that everything will have carefully with my dream. Of course, I am can’t take care of its distance and distance; For me, spirit must be the first, it’s just that civilization is created by my heart, but compared with the numerous material desires and twisted vulgar civilization, I have the unique feeling of being outside the world. This is enough for me, and if you have the heart, ask for anything? I lonely! You deserve? Nietzsche was a loner, so he warned the world not to pretend to be lonely easily in his unique way. Loneliness is a kind of realm. I certainly don’t deserve to be called loneliness. The world is wonderful. What should I do if I want to be lonely? My heart galloped and was longing for that wonderful thing. Although I knew that wonderful thing was too far away from me, my heart journey had already begun, and I thought I am hopeful to arrive.

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Enjoy happy

Happiness is a kind of emotion from the heart and a kind of clear inner feeling. There is only one life, so we should live each day happily. Happiness is a kind of ability as well as wisdom. Happy people are the smartest. Happiness is a state of mind, which has nothing to do with wealth, age and environment. The most difficult and easiest thing in the world is happiness. Happiness is the best cosmetic of beauty. Happiness is everywhere and everywhere. Happiness is a profound thing, which should be carved slowly on the heart made of bronze. Happiness is the heaven in my heart, and no one can occupy it. Happiness makes people have no disease in body and mind. Happy times are fleeting, don’t let youth flow. Happiness does not need to be fettered. Every day is the best day of the year. Happiness is an attitude, happiness is a choice, and happiness is also a kind of spirit of living. The cheapest, most precious and most effective medicine is happiness. True happiness is neither ecstasy nor pain. Only when it is moderate can it be happy. Happiness is not the result of luck. It is always a virtue, a heroic virtue. Happiness can be shared. The reason for sharing is that you are here and friendship is here. The highest level of happiness is worry-free. True happiness does not come from wealth or honor, but from doing something worth doing. If everyone had no worries, it would be the scene of great harmony in the world. Most happiness is extremely ordinary and simple. It has no gorgeous appearance, no perfect modelling, not to mention noise and flashy. It often moistens things silently, gently and quietly walk to your side. People’s personality ultimately determines their happiness. What your personality is determines what you can share, for example, a stupid personality, even if the wealth is surrounded by 100 beautiful women, can not change the stupid personality in the end. There is no reason for happiness, but there are countless excuses for unhappiness. Don’t magnify the disaster and pain. Cherish what you have not lost and you will get happiness. A person’s happiness is not because he has more, but because he cares less. Billionaires also have unhappy moments, and beggars also have happy moments. There are thousands of reasons for happiness. The key is that you feel happy, that is, happy. Doing good things is the only truly happy action in life. Love, family affection and friendship are all harbors of happiness. You should face the parting after parting calmly and find an impossible one happily. Pedestrians full of joy and fighting spirit always bring happiness and welcome Thunder and sunshine. Happy people don’t care at all, but can see clearly. The man who can gain happiness from loss is the wise man of life. Most happy people are humorous geniuses with a pair of wise eyes, and they can often find the factors of happiness by accident. Happy people have a sense of responsibility and do not owe human feelings. Happy people have a broad mind and will not haggle over trivial matters. Happy people are not hypocritical and have no airs. When you sit seriously, you also show innocence full of childlike interest. Gentlemen are frank, scumbags are always angry. Happy people are frank, upright, and sympathetic. Kindness brings the purest happiness to people, while scumbags are turbid. Happy people have a wide range of interests and will not do nothing. Most happy people are generous, sociable and have many friends. A happy life is optimistic, open-minded, aggressive, but contented. Happy people have strong ability to resist setbacks. They always think that difficulties are temporary and believe that dark clouds can’t cover the sun. The source of happiness comes from the kindness in people’s heart and the broadness of mind. This kind of person has profound and broad sympathy and is willing to help others. We can not expect to be a noble person, but to be a generous person, so that you will have a lot of happiness. If you want to know whether a person is happy, just look at his eyes. The beautiful light shining in the eyes of a happy person cannot be hidden. Happiness is just a painful interval. You have to work hard before enjoying it. If you want to be happy, don’t let yourself be listless. To be happy is not to increase wealth, but to reduce desire. Life is just a few decades. Don’t leave yourself any regrets. Laugh whenever you want, cry whenever you want, love when you should, and don’t suppress yourself. If you regard work as a happy thing, work will be fun. Therefore, no matter what you do, you must be happy and enjoy the process. It is a kind of happiness to walk together in the wind and rain; It is a kind of happiness to climb together in the mountains; It is also a kind of happiness to learn and encourage each other; It is a kind of happiness to grow old hand in hand. Happiness requires learning and action. Happiness is like a flower, which needs hard watering. You can’t find happiness if you search through thousands of mountains and rivers; If you cultivate under your feet, happiness will bloom immediately. Whether it’s smart or simple, as long as you don’t do stupid things, you are not a fool and you should feel happy. Sunrise in the East China Sea falls to the West Mountain, and sorrow is also a day, happiness is also a day; When things go wrong, people are also comfortable, and their hearts are also comfortable. With a contented heart, happiness lies in you. If depression is the occasional dark clouds, then happiness is the sunshine through clouds and mist. Laughter brings sweetness to life, making it as fragrant as flowers in the Rose Garden. The most beautiful face in the world is a smiling face, and happy people are the most beautiful. The way to be happy is to broaden one’s interest as much as possible, and make friendly reactions instead of making hostile reactions to people and things that arouse interest. If you give a rose to someone, you will have a lingering fragrance in your hands. If you help others, you can also reap happiness. Happy people are warm-hearted. When you are happy, the main way to be happy is to sit up happily and look around happily, making your words and deeds seem to have been happy. Happiness should be accompanied by sadness. It should be sunny after rain. Happiness can infect, just as depression can infect. There is a door in everyone’s heart. If you close the door and window, it will be easy to be pessimistic and melancholy; If you open the door and window, happiness will come with the wind. Some people are happy in appearance, but their inner heart may be very painful; Some people are calm in appearance but happy in heart. External happiness is shallow happiness, while inner happiness is real happiness. Life is the most difficult problem in the world, which is so complicated that people can never understand it. But life is as simple as a transparent drop of water, a poem, a song, a small flower, a green leaf and a small animal, which can make us float happily like a fairy, has been floating into heaven. Willing, willing, willing to give up to get. Get, easy to be happy; Lose, easy to be sad. The highest level of happiness is the sunny day after rain, the dawn after dark night, the fruits of sweat, the success after failure, the gathering after separation, and the sweetness after suffering, is laughter tears. Friends, life is beautiful and happy. Every little thing, every goal, every little thing, every sentence contains happiness. Optimists’ hearts are filled with happiness, and their dreams are also melancholy. However, whether in their hearts or dreams, the real trainers only have peace and tranquility.

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Emotional appeal

[Editor’s note] emotional appeal is the adjustment of life and the romance of affection. Emotional appeal is also the mood and mentality. No one’s life is smooth and unsatisfactory. Life is not waiting for you to be busy, just taste it, it’s good to be busy, and it’s good to be idle. I like emotional appeal, with the flavor of petty bourgeoisie, mysterious, romantic, unique, chic, a fragrant fan, a pair of earrings, a glass of red wine, a taste of tea, all exudes strong affection, casual Saran. I like women with emotional appeal, understand life, and make people read tirelessly. The layout of the house is orderly, and the home is not expensive, but it is very unique. Each cup, plate, bed and floor all give off unique charm. The dress is exquisite and handsome, with classical beauty, elegant and refined, it gives off a kind of amorous feelings from the inside to the outside, enchanting, charming, and unique elegance, which makes people lovely. The beauty of things comes from our affection. For example, if the rose hadn’t been given such a deep moral by people, how could it be so affectionate, so delicate and full of thorns. It is popular and popular. Every Valentine’s Day, the social status will double. Once the festival is over, it will decline on the streets. One yuan for one piece, no one cares. Men and Women in Love still need to pay attention to emotional appeal. If 99 roses are served, how can they not win the girl’s heart, and which woman is not interested in it. It is romantic and wonderful to spread love for a long time. Compared with gold and silver, I prefer Jade. Gold and silver are too vulgar, while Jade is clear, with a kind of amorous feelings, inheriting the culture of thousands of years. In A Dream of Red Mansions, Jade is indispensable everywhere, Lin Daiyu, jia Baoyu, born with Jade, is so smart and clear. Although it is just a stone, its value is connected. If you can wear it with jade, it will have a unique flavor and exotic atmosphere, exceptionally few natural. When I went to Beijing, I felt so tired, just like taking a glance at the flowers. The weather was still hot, so I didn’t have any interest. I don’t like the Great Wall or the Imperial Palace. I like Houhai very much. I feel it is extremely quiet there. The most emotional things are the Houhai bar, classical home, dim yellow lights and personalized decorations, as sensation. Sitting in the bar, drinking beer, watching the water in silence, Yang Liuyi, sparkling. Wanruo’s paradise is so wanton and romantic. Let the dust feel quiet for a moment. Emotional appeal is also to raise a pot of flowers in the office, not too much, just a pot, in spare time, careful care, pleasing to the eye, Silent Light watching, melancholy, expecting, thinking of something, some people… colleagues saw it and said, “your flowers are going to bloom, yes, it’s really going to bloom, maybe, maybe tomorrow will bloom… sentiment is still, on a heavy rain afternoon, a person was cooking rose tea, sitting in front of the computer, reading a novel, watching joys and sorrows, but quietly. Standing up and looking out of the window, the running pedestrians were sad and sympathetic. Filled with the fragrance of roses, you can enjoy your own pleasure. Love is also leisure and style. People born in the floating world are as busy as ants. Children go to school, old people get sick, work is a mess, how come leisure and elegant to flirt life, I want to say, emotional appeal is also the mood, is the mentality, no one’s life is smooth, unsatisfactory nine times out of ten, life is not to taste it until you are not busy. It is good to be busy and free. Drinking in a bar is elegant, and drinking on the street is bold and unrestrained. After dinner, watching TV, drinking beer and holding the chicken neck is also a kind of emotional appeal. Tea does not have to drink Longjing or coffee, and it is not only blue mountain that is the top grade. Everything in the world has various shapes and styles, and each has its own preference and uniqueness, the key point is that we use that kind of mood to enjoy, which is more plain, elegant or emotional appeal.

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Miss

Everything around is so quiet, only the never-ending ticking sound of the clock, together with the Heart Lake which gradually became no longer calm because of missing. Walking out of the door, a circle of yellow halo light came out from the window, spreading gradually in the thin mist. I think there is a beam of light, is it always willing to open a happy roof for me to illuminate my heart/? I was just longing for it. In the cold wind, there was a pair of warm hands clenched tightly. It was so firm and powerful. The warmth spread all over my body, making me feel the steadfast and powerful life. Longing for the distance, those affectionate eyes, full of thoughtfulness and care, can cross time and space and penetrate into the depth of my heart. The date longing for the dream of winter, the bright stars at night, please tell me, when should it be the return date of my heart? Yes, you promised that a constant heart would wait for a silly girl. Missing grows wings from that moment. It is like a never-broken line. In the wind, in the rain, it keeps flying, flying, crossing mountains and rivers, it has been parked on your windowsill. But at this moment, are you also sleeping soundly in missing? Perhaps only you know that the girl with tears shining in the sun has fallen petals of missing all over the floor.

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Indulgence

The agreement of the past and present is just an oath. Passing by flowers, passing by you, and the story after that is just dust to dust, soil to soil. The morning when dreams wake up is a piece of warm sunshine, bright and soft. After so many years of silent love for you, I finally chose to leave and give up. Since the process and the ending have come, I will go to entanglement and even feel greedy. Preface 1 for a long time, we are just talking about love in the virtual world of the Internet. At that time, we knew a chat room. Your net name is desert solitary smoke, and my name is smoke past. Originally, I had already passed the age of wind, flowers, snow and moon, and I was no longer young, let alone love. But your appearance is like a bay of cheerful streams pouring into a pool of stagnant water. From then on, my life began to be turbulent. You said, I am like an ancient woman, tender and talented. I said, your talent and wisdom are like ropes, which have firmly bound me. During that period of time, with your company, I was very happy and happy, like a girl in love. Although, I know that there are too many cheating in this virtual world. However, you make me feel safe and warm. You will not explore my past, nor will I Explore Your Future. We are like two fish stranded in shallow water. Suddenly we think of the word “mutual help”. However, the person who is with me, not you! And the woman who respects you as a guest is not me either. Second, since we can’t help each other, we have to forget each other. The years went by gradually, but I became more and more sad. I have asked you more than once, what would you do if I left one day? At that time, my tears fell on the keyboard drop by drop, as if I heard the sound of heart fragments. You know? Since I got to know you, I have become a woman who has fallen for love and love, and since then I will never be doomed. Seeing your bloodshot eyes because of staying up late in the video, I began to feel painful; Hearing that you drove to the northeast to handle the case, I was always inexplicably worried, afraid of snow and slippery road; hearing that your heart had something wrong, I began to pray for your life silently. All my joys and sorrows were influenced by you alone, even though we had never met each other, even though we were far away from thousands of rivers and mountains. You tell me that you like to sing special love most. For special you, my loneliness cannot escape your eyes. I said, I love singing Crying Sand most. You are my bitterest waiting, which makes me happy and afraid of the future. I know that we all sing with our hearts. At that time, my mobile phone was on for you all day and all night, for fear of missing a call or a message from you. At that time, I became a soft-hearted woman, and wrote so many sad poems for you. In those years when I was busy and didn’t want to call the curtain, there was a flower growing forever. You and I started a platonic spiritual love in this way. Third, I have wanted to leave for countless times, leaving the Internet and leaving you. However, can I really forget you? I haven’t heard from you for a long time. My Sky was suddenly full of haze and Thunder. I am like a madman, constantly calling your mobile phone, but you are like into thin air, and no longer have any contact with me. In those days, my heart was hollowed out and I became a walking corpse. Lonely, confused, silent, sad, used to churning and rotating over and over again in such a reincarnation. You suddenly left, my world was dark. Finally, in a sleepless night, your message came: For a long time, there are a lot of words to say to you, but I don’t know how to say them. I’m afraid that each other will get too deep, hurt you, so I chose silence! Can you understand my good intentions? This is exactly because I care about you! At that moment, I endured the pain of my heart, smiling and letting tears roll wildly in my heart. It turns out that you care about me, and you always care about me! However, two parallel lines of love have already been separated between us. Happiness will also have a deadline. I used to think of these happiness moment can be forever, but in you resist turned leave that quarter, feel also in slowly precipitation, and then 1.1 drops disappear, the remaining memories related to yesterday also turned into fragments. The moment of happiness was suddenly put to an end, and the feeling of breaking was so strong and turbulent. I remember you said: I hope I can be happy at any time. But, can it? If life is just like the first sight, if I can, I would rather pretend to be happy in that virtual space. From then on, for whom can I sing a parting song, say love to whom, and write to whom? I really love you. I closed my eyes and thought I could forget it, but the tears I shed didn’t deceive myself. Si San Mao said: the love of some people is just a kind of emotion at that time. If the other side wrongly regards this emotion as long-term love, it is naive in itself. But I believe you are serious. Over the years, I have wanted to see you for many times, but I have been rejected by you for many times. When I heard your invitation for the last time, my heart was dead. I don’t blame you, really, it is better to miss each other in life! However, when I am alone in the beautiful scenery of Beidaihe, I will still miss you unconsciously, thinking of our previous agreement and those colorful memories, it is always clear and vague over and over again. Everything is just passing. I only have one person to collect the scenery passing. We are like flowers on the other shore, and the root and stem can never be connected. However, in that year of cardamom, who ever promised that the Earth would last forever? For several years, we have always split and merged on the Internet. Now, seeing your QQ image flickering, my heart is as calm as water, and I can’t afford any slight billows. Those withered times finally buried all my truest love for you, and we became the most familiar strangers. Now that we have become strangers, meeting is just a Grace! Looking at you, if you want to say and stop, you can only listen to your distant and beautiful songs in the wind. Your net name is Lovesickness in the wind and rain, but I am your forever lovesickness in this life? I once gave you a piece of green soil, can you still return me a piece of blue sky? Love deep without complaint! Liu Ruoying’s song rang in his ears: I want to ask if you dare to love me as you said! I want to ask if you dare to be crazy about love like me! Five because of love, so mercy; Because of understanding, so tolerance. I want to draw a game of life and death, and write an ending for our story. It’s just that the story has no ending. I think I am love you, from the beginning to the end without ending now. No matter how the time and space flow, my love grows old together with the years until my gray hair is gray. Love you, give you all the beauty of my life, then leave, let kaleidoscope shine your eyes. I often think, what will a person look like if he loses his memory? Can you really forget those heartbreaking things? So forget, will it be like ethereal again? It hurt and tired. I closed my eyes and saw two drops of crystal clear liquid flowing out. When I touched it with my fingers, it spilled all over the floor. Ultimately, life hurts. Your marrow. The night is slightly cool, the light is slightly dark, the ambiguity is gone, and the music is melodious. Maybe this life can only be recalled again and again in such a reincarnation, missed again and again, cried again and again, sad again and again.

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Dear, how much I want your gentleness to spend the night with me

Listening to the gentle and lingering music from the recorder, my heart flew to the distance unconsciously and stayed beside the person who was willing to accompany me through the whole life. Dear, what are you doing? How eager you are to be with me all the time, to give me love and warmth. I don’t want to be rich and expensive. As long as you let me have the love of my whole life, that’s enough. I often think of you unconsciously. Maybe I, who once suffered misfortune, need the companionship and snuggle of my heart too much. In front of the man who promised to promise me love with his whole life, I really had nothing to say. All the tears of happiness flowed quietly in my heart. Maybe I am no longer lonely on the road of wind and rain. For many times, I feel that living is a meaningless thing. It is too tired, too tired. However, dear, because of your existence, because of your love for me, I must live well. No matter the road ahead is full of thorns or thunder. In this life, I don’t know what else I can do. Maybe I will always be so mediocre and plain, maybe I am not as smart as others, I have enough ability to help you do more meaningful things, but I like to stay together in peace. A couple living a daily life of daily necessities, Maybe it is better than rich people who are rich but have extremely empty spirit. Close my eyes and let my missing drift away with the lingering song like this. I am just longing for a kind of peace of heart, without suspicion, criticism or criticism, what we have is just mutual care and concern. Maybe life experiences are different. My strong feelings are just hidden in my heart. I hope I will bring you happiness for a lifetime. Dear, finally, I heard your call. On this night that is coming, is the city you live in already full of thousands of lights? Dear, when you left, I didn’t send you because I was too afraid of leaving and tears! Sad, bit by bit, how can you send it to each other with tears? However, when you said goodbye to me with a smile, my tears still couldn’t help coming! Dear, I admit my vulnerability. I know that you will be my constant support for my whole life. However, how can I gradually find that you are so careless after marriage? How I wish you can give me care and consideration all the time, whether emotional or life. I admit that I am love you. Every time we get together with you and we are unhappy because of some problems, a bad moment just flashed in my mind, all your advantages came immediately, driving away those bad thoughts. Although I am two years older than you, my dear, my heart is full of attachment to you! The autumn wind is bleak and the lonely lamp is sad. How I wish you, dear, come to me immediately, comfort me, encourage me and strength. For me, and for the child less than three months we are breeding in the belly! Dear, we have the crystallization of our love, but what follows is a lot of worries about whether he can come to this world smoothly and his health, how I wish he could be smart, beautiful and lively. Even if he is not beautiful, I also hope he is healthy. We should create a warm and comfortable environment for him and give him more freedom and happiness for his growth. Dear, do you know? The safe birth of a child will be my greatest ideal at present! Yes, I used to love poetry and live in fantasy. Literature is my best ideal. Although people who know me all say that my writing style is good, I find that I am deviating from my hobbies and ideals. For half a year, I haven’t written even a few words. I have lost myself in the ordinary trifles and become vulgar. But my child is coming to this world. I should get rid of some bad habits in my life and grow up with him. Dear, I hope you too! I pulled down the phone, but tears came out unconsciously. Fortunately, it was the twilight-I didn’t let anyone see it. Dear, is missing always touching your heart? Otherwise, why do you always call again and again when you are fine? The lingering song is still permeating in the room, permeating, dear, how much I want your gentleness to spend the night with me!

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Embroidered

[Introduction] all the songs collected in it are Jay’s songs, the voice squeezed out from the lips and teeth, with slight sadness and a little loneliness. The artistic conception is distant and boundless, just like the Everlasting blue and white porcelain, standing in the bustling downtown, lonely and cold out of a different kind of youth.

I have been thinking about how to survive the long summer vacation. I think I am really a bitch. I feel uncomfortable when I am idle. So I thought of embroidery. I went to the store to choose embroidery that day. Looking at the framed finished product, I couldn’t help admiring to be stunned. How delicate the dense needlework should come from, and how exquisite it can be described! I like the red rose embroidery very much. The magnificent color is warm, full and romantic. If you hang it in the bedroom and have a look at it before going to bed every day, it must be very eye-catching. It’s time to choose by yourself. But after a round of shopping, I couldn’t get started. Maybe I was too unfamiliar with embroidery. So I asked the landlady to give it to the staff, hanging it in the living room, which was a little elegant and easy to embroider. After thinking a little, she drew one of the numerous embroideries. That is a blue-and-white porcelain bottle with a vigorous plum blossom on it. The color is slightly monotonous, and the position of blue and white porcelain is emphasized too much. The landlady said that this blue-and-white porcelain bottle was very beautiful, simple and elegant, and it was most suitable for the atmosphere in the living room. OK, that’s it. I didn’t care about the content at first, and I just wanted to feel the mood of embroidery. Thinking of such a picture of plum blossom embroidered by myself, hanging in my own living room also has a special charm. Although the position of blue and white porcelain is heavier than that of plum blossom. But, whatever, I like the process rather than the result. I have been embroidering these days. Firstly, divide the cloth into several equal cross squares, and then draw the outline according to the figure. Counting those dense pinholes one by one, even if one is wrong, it will affect the effect of the whole picture, so we can’t tolerate any carelessness. The blue patterns are intricate and tangled together, and there is no rule to follow at all. In order to highlight the effect of light and shadow, you have me in the lines that are close to each other and slightly different. It’s hard to make such a delicate division of labor for me, a man with thick lines. I don’t know how many brain cells are bleeding in the battlefield, but there is no return. Then there is embroidery one by one. If drawing is difficult, you will know how difficult it is to embroider. I often sit for a few hours, but this record is very small. I guess this embroidery will certainly exhaust my leisure for a summer vacation. If it is sold for money, it is estimated that it can be sold for several hundred yuan. If you pointed at it to support your family, you might have been starving for several times. Think about why it’s so hard, and work hard to do these meaningless things. Is it true that there is a tendency of self-abuse? My son will always appreciate my works and then praise them. I laughed at his young age and even learned to flatter him. He said it was not flattering, but sincere. He admired my mother’s perseverance. I listened very comfortably. Then he talked a lot about the truth of life until his son ran away without a trace. Put away the embroidery in the evening, and listen to songs while cooking with the headset. All the songs collected inside were Jay’s songs, the voice squeezed out from his lips and teeth, with slight sadness and a little loneliness. The artistic conception is distant and boundless, just like the Everlasting blue and white porcelain, standing in the bustling downtown, lonely and cold out of a different kind of youth. As well as a distant wind, you need to raise your head and stop looking up, and full of desolation, presumably the embroidery must carry too much emotion and spirituality of the embroider, such as every article you write. And what did I embroider into my blue and white porcelain bottle?

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Lovely ㄨ fillip confidante old

Lovely finger old beauty Lovely finger there is no wall that cannot be attacked, only the atrium that cannot be entered; There is no injury that cannot be warmed, only the supremacy that cannot be replaced!

Lovely finger I have never handled your prosperity in the fleeting years, and you will not touch my elegance in the world of mortals! Just a finger of quicksand passed by, and the charming flower covering my shoulder fell all over the ground!

Lovely finger you are loved by someone, and you have already said goodbye to the future of war and chaos; I am waiting for your love, and I have already forgotten the vicissitudes of life; We have never loved each other, and have already been wrong in the Sea of Love! Looking back again, it seems to be the autumn of others. What do you do with me! If you blame you, but you are still sad, why should you be tender! Lovely finger I left Nine love to recall once; Another one is that I hate you and say I am cruel! Lovely fingers should be accurate to men, cold to speak, ruthless to let go! Lovely we were all right or wrong that year. We also loved each other, but we still split up. Were you sad or what happened? My heart hurt, but I still laughed.

Lovely finger life is a net, which lives in my heart and your room, but it never lives in my heart at the same time!

Lovely ㄨ fillip

Lovely finger in love good impression and curiosity made you surrender, is it OK or do you know the current situation?

Lovely finger in the past why didn’t you die in the past memory memory how can you have face to make me recall

Lovely fingers at the two ends of the life, can’t make a shore! The offshore flowers are blooming but not ending!

Lovely finger if you don’t appear in who has seen me since the day, then how dare I appear in who I have seen your mark!

Lovely finger study has not yet been completed, the little girl still needs to struggle!

Lovely fingers don’t say love as love, don’t say love as love, your love and love are enough for us to fall in love for a few days?

Lovely fingers some people love it as if they return to their hometown, but that is a miracle!

Lovely finger I save your homepage as my bookmark, but I will never enter the page of your personal center, yes, it is a little distance…

Lovely finger love! It will make people humble. Why do you make things worse! Are you too young? Or is it beyond my control? Lovely finger you ruined my youth, I ruined your world of mortals, is it equal? There are so many Lovely people who are rude, and how many are infatuated? But if you count me as a Lovely finger, can you sometimes turn around and walk away, wash away the dust, and whether you can’t bear the loneliness in the end, so I would rather endure the Lovely fingers and suddenly think of what you once said to me: we should get used to having no future for each other. I felt very harsh at that time, but now I am numb and Lovely fingers and don’t move! Let me like you for a while, I will leave immediately, and I will not disturb you for too long! Lovely finger love is not to watch food and eat, can’t let you-I am so far-fetched! Whether a man is successful or not can not be based on how many women are willing to turn back for you, but on how many women you will remould themselves! Lovely ㄨ fillip that innuendo words, that refused to want to welcome charming, that humble humble, you undue! Lovely finger I know enough! Understand your reluctance! Lovely fingers too many regrets always make me hesitate to make up for it. In the end, it was cold in front of people. Fortunately, I knew how to hide! Is the beauty of Lovely finger fireworks worth pursuing? Gorgeous Sky, lonely sky! Lovely fingers not only love one person in your life, but only one person can accompany you to get old. If you are not sure that person is the last one, why do you feel so sad, why do you fall in love with so much, save some love and leave some money for the last one! Lovely finger-to-heart love, a lifetime of Tsing Yi, eventually empty dream! The fate is gone, the West Lake, see the year from afar! Lovely finger before, after, heart is like colored glaze, tired for a lifetime! Lovely ㄨ snap your unrestrained future can have my leisurely breath! Lovely one-man show, not afraid that no one will listen, but afraid of singing to the wrong person! I am not afraid of the relentless water, but I am afraid that love is too strong! You understand, right? Lovely finger I hate her most: Do you like me, little Furong?… Little Furong, do you dislike me?… Little Furong, why don’t you ignore me?… Little Furong is talking with my sister …… idiot deskmate Lovely fingers even if you are going to lose, don’t use your previous efforts as a chip to retain! Because it is very difficult, the previous efforts are without complaint or regret, but now it is useless to force them! Lovely fingers, let alone women’s material, are men without quality! Lovely fingers before, we always described love as love because of the beginning of love; Later, we always described love as love because of being hurt; Now we can’t tell what love is, that’s because the true feelings are no longer there! Lovely fingers once I turned back without hesitation, and you turned a blind eye to me; Once I put all my eggs in one basket, and you were determined for the whole life; Once you regretted, I was as cold as ice; Once you promised, I felt cold and gray! Lovely fingers can’t see snow in winter, I can never see your appearance Lovely fingers you are a man who knows how to advance and retreat, women will retreat when they enter, women will enter when they retreat, how can they easily forget you? Lovely fingers, or let’s play! Do you want to be immortal or notorious? Lovely fingers love is not a comfort, but you push it to me alone Lovely fingers for three years, although each other has already changed seasons, but I am still so keen on pursuing your news! I know you have seen me and tried to warm me at the moment you look back, but I also understand that only one look back does not mean that I can replace your Lovely man now! It’s just that I’m tired of playing and feel painful. Finally, I’ll just find someone to make do with it! After all the love and enthusiasm are exhausted, I know how much I am. What is my Lovely friend? Is it natural and unrestrained to drink, or pour out the melancholy of your heart! Lovely fingers this is a season of falling leaves, like the heart of that year, floating and uncertain Lovely fingers used to touch the mobile phone under the table in class, but now they touch it on the table; I used to be half asleep and half awake in class, but now I can’t sleep! Lovely finger saw a sentence: life is either tolerant or cruel! I am used to the former, I am also used to the latter given by you Lovely ㄨ finger 07 double one you can still remember yesterday once more 907 you can still remember the water moon 908 you can still remember the little sun 503 you can still I remember my Lovely fingers, I have loved, loved and paid; I once hated, hated, regretted; Have I ever given you the opportunity to cherish? Or I have never put down your fault! Lovely finger no matter how poor a woman is, she must rely on herself, and no matter how poor a man is, she must not rely on her! Lovely fingers we are not ruthless people, but we can’t be our own masters! Lovely fingers even if the whole world is overturned, I will not be confused, because at least I have a love of yours to guide me Lovely fingers no matter how bright the light is, it will not stop the darkness of the night! No matter how tight the curtain was, it still shot into the confusion of the night! Lovely fingers if the next life is no longer a play and happiness is no longer a beautiful and wonderful memory, I would like to spend my whole life to repay the love that cannot be fulfilled in this life! Lovely finger you lend me your whole life, and I will spend my whole life to repay! Lovely fingers if you are destined, even if you are separated, you will meet one day; If you are not destined, even if you get along with each other day and night, you will be full of troubles! Lovely fingers can still squeeze into today’s prosperity yesterday, which is too sad! Lovely finger promise is debt, love is evil! I am in debt, and I am also greedy for evil! Lovely finger I will not forget all of you, nor will I remember all of you! Lovely fingers finally find that what I have been longing for for many years is just a dream! The elegance you have no intention to reveal in your dream makes my heart look forward to it, and you may have already forgotten that the Lovely back is my memorial arch, and I will bury the proud time for you! Lovely fingers I never dare to expect how important I am in others’ hearts. Since I choose to be ordinary, I choose to endure it, even if one day I heal myself! Lovely finger if I have left, please remember to forget me. Anyway, please remember that this is our agreement. Lovely finger I am melancholy guest in the world, knowing what to do with tears! Lovely fingers we only have this life, this is our only chip, we have to bet together; We only have this life, this is our only drama, we have to perform on the same stage! Lovely fingers memories are sad; Expectations are lost; Love is perfect because it is not completed! Lovely fingers, old beauty, old beauty, how coquettish! One-time, heartbroken horizon! Lovely finger if I really love you, even if you are playing games with me, I will play with you. You are playing with lies, I am playing with you sincerely! I mistook him for you. I am thinking about you or I have forgotten that you are Lovely. You can say that you are old and old. This year’s flower armor, who will dance with you!

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Farewell, my young partner

Hui Hui, the former best friend of a company’s gold medal salesman, called to invite me to go shopping. It was rare for us to be together. Hearing her invitation, we were very happy, so we left our husband to go shopping with her happily. Hui is still short curly hair, and the dress is also very generous: wearing a gray wool jacket with inlay, inside is a white printed T-shirt, a pair of jeans, a pair of black high-heeled shoes, wringing a small leather bag with black pattern, the appearance is no different from before. When I saw me, the smile on my face was the same as before, showing the sincere smile after long absence. Forgot what the first sentence we said when we met. They walked towards the road with a smile and a smile. I said: Where do you want to go? Hui said: Go to zhubai. I said: Then let’s take bus No. 19. Why take No. 19? It’s not enough to take a taxi. I’m too lazy to cross the road. Hui said disapprovingly. No. 19, 2 yuan is enough. I also wanted to explain. Hui smiled and raised his hands. A taxi stopped beside us. She and I got into the taxi one after another and drove towards zhubai. We got off the bus at the gate of zhubai. We thought she was going to zhubai, but she said, “go to a thousand dollars. My heart thumbs up. In my eyes, Qianjin clothing is a brand monopoly field with high female consumption. If I remember correctly, I have never visited here. I thought: I went shopping with her anyway. Therefore, she followed her into the precious clothes without saying anything. We were talking while watching the clothing shops with different decorations on both sides. It looked very casual. She walked into a shop in a leisurely walk. I saw, here of clothing suitable for 20~30-year-old women, me carry her out go: Come on, it’s not belong to our age wear. Hui Yi brushed my sign language and said unhappily: Don’t pull me, what’s the matter? You don’t wear it like this age. At that moment, I was stunned, but soon I recovered calm. I knew that the gentle stroke had already isolated us in two different worlds. As expected, in the following strolling, I was like a footman. She tried on clothes. I sat on the bench and watched her try on all kinds of clothes in front of me like watching a movie. Quiet, a little silly. I saw a middle-aged man accompanying a middle-aged woman also looking at the clothes. The woman took a fancy to a dress with black background and tried it with great interest. The man was the same as me, looking aside, From beginning to end, I didn’t hear any suggestions from men. The woman looked around in front of the mirror. After looking back at the man, she took off her clothes and left. It was estimated that the man gave her a negative expression. Suddenly I understood the feeling of a man shopping with his daughter. Men know that most of the time, women go shopping not because they really want to buy a dress, but because they want to experience a different kind of beauty and feel the amazing light in men’s eyes, of course, there is no lack of the heroic spirit of enjoying the generosity of men. Therefore, men always smile calmly, seeing more and buying less Hui are surprised why I don’t like shopping anymore. If women don’t go shopping, they will lose a lot of fun in life. You are originally a person who pays great attention to life and likes dressing up. How can you become unwilling to go shopping? I don’t know how to explain Hui’s doubts. Perhaps as Hui said: you are already old. In the past, Hui and I went shopping, ate barbecue on the street, and bargained to buy some clothes with good texture but low price in the clothing market. But now, except for the appearance, there is no change between each other, we can’t find a common topic any more. Hui said: buying clothes is to taste life. For me, clothes are just warm body. In this way, the two of them traveled out of the thousands of women’s clothes with their own minds, and went to eat at the Brazilian barbecue on Wangfujing empty-handed. This place was my choice, I wanted to invite Hui to dinner and enjoy the quiet and warm environment with her, recalling our stories. Hui rushed to buy the order. I took two pieces of food and brought them over. But she said, “You have made yours. At that moment, I was stupid again. I realized my abruptness. I sat down, picked up my knife and fork and ate it. I sat opposite Hui and I, thinking of the time when the two families were having dinner, you were eating with relish in a vegetable basin, especially the most classic conversation between my daughter and Hui has made us happy, and our hearts are still warm. Hui kept saying that the barbecue here had become Hunan cuisine, and nothing was new. I smiled and said: I want to talk to you in a quiet and warm environment, and enjoy lunch, what I want to say more in my heart is: I want to find the feeling of my girlfriend who used to talk about everything, but everything has passed. After lunch, the two continued to hang out. Hui listened to me that shopping made me understand the mood of a man shopping with a woman, and her mood became lost. She said that she would not buy clothes today, and she was in a bad mood, no matter how beautiful the clothes are, there is no feeling; In a good mood, it feels good to wear any clothes. I regretted saying this to her, but she couldn’t take it back. I think she also felt the distance between us. Maybe she wanted to ease the strangeness between us. She told me something about her friends around her, as if this could maintain the continuous journey between us. After returning home, my mind was full of scenes when I went shopping two times. I suddenly lost myself, is it because I am far away from this society or because I have penetrated the world and become simple and transparent? Many fragments flew to me like snowflakes, filling my brain and suffocating me. A few days ago, my old classmate sister Yan invited me to dinner, saying that my classmates had a gathering, but I politely refused, in the evening, she called me again and asked me to go to sing, saying that she couldn’t sing after ordering “you at the same table”, so she must let me go to sing. I smiled and didn’t agree. Sister Yan turned off the phone angrily. In fact, sister Yan and I were also high school girlfriends. When she got married, I was still helping her be the internal affairs supervisor. When she was pregnant, I happened to be studying in a technical school. She Also specially invited me to her home for a first time. The first time I ate braised chicken was what she cooked for me; for the first time, I knew that when I was pregnant, I would read more beautiful pictures of my baby. My child would grow beautiful and handsome, which was also taught by sister Yan. After 30 years’ reunion, we met again. We had many small gatherings. Sister Yan was very sincere, but I also felt that there was a deep crack between me and her. Sister Yan is very generous and generous, but I can’t be like her. I know sister Yan treats me very well, and I can feel it, but the distance between us makes me feel at ease. I remember sister Yan asked me a word: Since you have no contact with your classmates, why do you organize a reunion so actively? I told her with a smile: it is for the continuation of the past fate. Sister Yan would not understand. I actively organized a reunion because I often went back to my school and my classroom in my dreams. I went back to my classmates and played with them in countless dreams, recalling the things I had experienced during my school days, the smiling faces always lingered in my dreams. What I especially wanted to see was A. It was strange that he always appeared in my dreams, every time silently, I never say a word, but I always ask him: how are you? And he always left without looking back. There are also some classmates who are so clear. Everything I fight with them, sweep the floor and do homework is just like yesterday, and I have been separated from them for 30 years, although they are in the same city, just like that poem: I live at the head of the river, and you live at the end of the river. I think you don’t see you day and night, and drink a river together. Eager to meet again eager to say to them: Hello. Therefore, with a special feeling, I devoted myself to organizing a classmate party. However, after the reunion of classmates, when I saw the person I wanted to meet in my dream, I found that we were not the 16-year-old one. The 30-year time was just like a lesson from heaven, we have never guessed from our childhood to the strangeness of each other at this moment; Many of our childhood faces are no longer young, looking for the familiar outline faintly, and finding that the dream is broken, but the love is gone. Therefore, I tried my best to make video discs and picture albums for the reunion of classmates, and poured my deep feelings to classmates into them, just for the memory of forgetting. Then, I wish those good sisters who buried everything deep in my heart and the literary world often get together. I don’t know why, and I can’t find that kind of feeling of unity. I never thought that I was a literati. Although I also wrote words, my words had nothing to do with literature, and those so-called literary scholars also disdained my words. That’s it, I traveled on the edge of words, but I couldn’t find my own belonging, just like a lonely journey in the end of the world. Who could understand the pain? Therefore, I tried every means to escape, but I couldn’t give up a sincere friendship. Secondly, after each gathering, they just played mahjong, and every time I left alone for more times, I lost my interest in participating in the gathering, I felt that I was at a distance from them. I met Sister yuan for a period of time last year. She invited me to sing on the mountain of the youth palace. I went there several times, all of which were old men and women, I tried to integrate myself into it, but I couldn’t do it. After several times, I chose my colleagues in my home company to let me join their dance team and dance in the square every night, I agreed happily, but when I walked to the square, I saw those elder sisters, my feet were like nails, and I couldn’t move at all, I said to myself again and again: go and dance with them. However, as if the feet were welded with iron nails, they could not take that step. In the end, I had no choice but to go back and live a life of dancing alone at home every day. Pieces of them clearly stirred in my mind. I was an alternative in my friends’ eyes, while they were in my heart, it becomes an eternal memory. Am I sick or have I been abandoned by the society? Think about my world carefully. I buy food and cook every day, sit in front of the computer in my spare time, knock my favorite words and sentences, and calculate maths that others cannot understand, traveling in the ocean of Mathematical Olympiad in primary school and mathematics in junior high school. I welcomed my students on Saturday and spent a happy weekend with them. When chatting, I chatted with the children in the vast open space, with pure faces and eager eyes. I swam in this world, simple and pure. Maybe there is my dignity and value in this world. People like a thing, which must give her pleasure or sense of value. Maybe it is the habit of being alone at home these years? Aloof deserted? Think about a full 7 years, I keep daily Farms home two-point life, a cold computer screen, I became with the outside world all, and my students. I gave them lessons and enjoyed it very much. It was the only time that I could communicate with people face to face in a week. Perhaps I am used to loneliness. Loneliness is a kind of animality, which is an antibody generated when the desire originated from the heart is incompatible with the reality. When I sorted out these fragments and emotions quietly, my heart was filled with sadness. I knew that my former friends and girlfriends had become friends in my memory, those past years will never cross the river of my soul and return to the dream of youth. Goodbye, youth partner! The dream is broken, so I can look back. Farewell, the youth partner in my dream. 2011-11-5

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I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me…

Sick time

I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…