Growth of notes

Growth of notes

[Introduction] of course, I am no exception. However, there is a feeling destined to be the same with me. I still insist on writing something every day and often use words to anesthetize myself, because I love literature, I also like this feeling of being anesthetized. Since I was a child, I lived a life of self-abasement, silence and deep silence. My mother joked that others were raised by milk and milk, while I grew up by drinking spring water and air, which was extraordinary and refined. In fact, not only do others feel that I am lonely, but also I feel very strange. Even I don’t understand why I live so quietly and quietly alone, as if my ancient soul full of desire haunts in a place abandoned by God, it floats aimlessly, traveling all over the world, and sometimes it is regarded as a lonely smoke in the desert, sometimes it is regarded as the Cold Moon and the wind, sometimes as a mirage, sometimes as a flash in the pan. Put down the fan in your hand, and your mind is not flying, but the spirit of your mind country. Back to reality, I am still me, who is now me, an extreme complex of contradictions, justice and bigotry, enthusiasm and indifference, the secular world is also free from vulgarity, traditional but also modern. I always feel that I have been groping forward in my life with my parents’ glasses from my son Di to this year. I also have my own life ideal, but I have been buried ruthlessly, in a depressed world, the thought of expanding loses its fulcrum, and doesn’t know which side to turn to, which side is the mature concession, just like the maple leaves which are about to drift in the swaying choice, however, I have always been a slave to my parents’ thoughts. It was they who helped me choose this way of studying full of flowers and thorns, and even chose the duty of angels in white. To be honest, I was very helpless. I cried and laughed when I came over, but sadness was always more than happiness. Even though I was reluctant too much, I never complained to my parents, because it is impossible to set up a balance between two generations, especially between children and parents. One side is always wronged, and it is this side that also learns to enjoy in the grievance. I always thought that if we stepped into the ivory tower, the life labeled by our parents could really end. It turned out that our eyes were staring at the road ahead, and you could gallop freely for the first time without turning back, but you will never have the heart not to look back at the old face behind you. Your parents’ two persistent eyes have stared at us for two decades, and now you are still used to living this addiction. They even carefully measured every footprint we left with the ruler of life. It was they who took care of our growth so firmly that my wings were still soft, I couldn’t bear to fly alone without them. I really couldn’t do it, so I learned to take the initiative and take the initiative to consider the wise decisions of my parents before letting them control. Time flies by like a blink of an eye. In This cradle, I have become a scholar who dares to rebuke and turn from a childish boy like a baby after three years of ups and downs, I only spent two years in college as dinner. In the past three years, I have read this great book of my parents., I have learned the true meaning of being late and made many friends. Life is full of sunshine and rainbow. Gradually I become more outgoing and mature. In a word, it is a gain to make people around you more satisfied. From then on, there was a world where I could dance again in my indifferent heart. After five years of college, I passed the CET-4 and CET-6 and the computer, and successfully won the scholarship, I also joined the party, and I am very satisfied with these memories. In ancient poetry, flowers are similar year after year, and people are different year after year. Life and Time originally conform to Euclidean’s parallel theorem, which will always be parallel, and everyone will only leave a silhouette of life with it, and it is in limited parallel time. Certainly, I am no exception, but there is a feeling destined to be the same with me. I still insist on writing something every day, often using words to anesthesia myself, because I love literature, I also like the feeling of being anesthetized. I grew up with dreams dancing with gods and cranes. Each dream was a musical note of growth, which formed a real song of life, singing so sad, sometimes it is so helpless, or so tragic, even so pure and beautiful. Sometimes I also want to let others know the weather forecast recorded by my emotions in the eventful years of my growth, but these growing notes seem to be meaningful only to myself, because in this world, in fact, except for myself, others are suffering from motor aphasia. It happens that their pronunciation is not the standard of their own soul, so they will not speak the colorful Mandarin that I want to hear in my heart.

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The world is barren! My heart is not good, I am not interested in everything. When you are sad, you are usually too lazy to explore why. Even if the answer comes out, even if you are already in the brain, you are still suppressed by hard labor. I hope you don’t understand it so early. Enjoy the confusion of this moment and make the next moment more sad. Therefore, you should learn to cut hemp quickly, and don’t pretend to be confused! (2) selfishness has a saying: if you don’t do it for yourself, the world will be destroyed. They are all selfish, but the society demands selflessness. Therefore, we learn to be selfless. But in the face of great interests, I think most of them will still be selfish or struggle fiercely. In life, sometimes I really want to be selfish, but I have to pretend to be selfless, and I am very wronged! I often see him being selfish without scruple. I don’t know if he has struggled in his heart before he shows it? Probably some! (3) hypocrisy is similar to selfishness, but there are some differences. My principle is that I won’t like him even if I don’t like him (dislike doesn’t mean hate, just the same feeling as the opposite a and B). There are too many people who don’t like it to like it. The horse flattered me with smiles. Therefore, I often live in hypocrisy. (Iv) the cold war after World War II has passed, but the Cold War in life is playing from time to time. I hate the cold war if I don’t agree. If we can persist in carrying out the cold war to the end, it is also a kind of persistence, which is worthy of admiration. But I hate the cold war when I have nothing to do and find a door when I have something to do. As for the Cold War, this kind of cold confrontation was a war without smoke of gunpowder. Life and death were all about themselves. I don’t think it is necessary to toss myself about it if I always turn against the cold war! (V) giving up I always thought I was open-minded and free before, and many things could be given up. Now I know that many things can’t be put down at all. (6) the true and false are thousands of faces. The true and false are mixed. It is difficult to distinguish who is true and who is false. It is true and false, and sometimes there is no action. Feeling is the easiest to fake, even if it is torn down, it is mostly delayed because the old is still there, and it is gone. Who is good and who is bad, in fact, the essence is almost the same, but it is manifested, and the depth is not revealed! Touch the mottled one, always pretending that you have never met your hands, but it is still a little bit worse to emphasize it over and over again. Of course, only when those mottled are not glory but shame. Otherwise, the situation will be greatly similar. The vague boundaries between true and false may not be visible to the eyes. In fact, the eyes of the masses are sharp, and this sentence is really harmful, because most of the time, the masses are always booing with the flow, sometimes helping, such as when the Cultural Revolution criticized; Sometimes helping, such as the killing incident of Jiaxin. However, they often only remember their busy schedule in their hearts, but they do not mention anything or vaguely pass it over. Calling: non-sages, to err is human? True and False, really hard to say! (7) gentlemen and small in this society, there are small and gentlemen. Under the pursuit of the interests of market economy, it is smaller than a gentleman. A gentleman does not want to ask for farewell, nor does he want to owe goodbye. When I was young, I always wanted to get some good things. Here and there, I was always busy. A gentleman advocates self-esteem, so he will try his best to avoid his own demands for other things, preferring that he will lose a little more. I like it and it’s clean, no loss, no debt. However, it is impossible to maintain social relations without loss or debt. Therefore, we will choose whether to owe or not, and whether to ask or not. However, Xiao likes to ask for it without spending a penny. From the aspects of financial management and household management, Xiao is the one who is popular and spicy, the one who adapts to the society and the winner. However, it is really difficult for a gentleman to maintain his own principles and be able to do well in the society. Therefore, before the fame and fame, there will always be a few times in this way. “As long as it is not discovered, exposed, or even if it is known, but forgiven, it is still a gentleman. So, what is a gentleman? (8) If you really want to be a wicked person, at least don’t look straight like now. You can choose, I will choose to be wicked. Did you find out that nine out of ten things are a little wicked or uncivilized. Be a good and expected person, very tired! However, lack of morality violates the ideology of mainstream culture. Therefore, depressively wicked, pretending not wicked. (9) in today’s society, there are few people who have no achievements. Once there is one, don’t be unacceptable, there will be no room for development. The same is true for school education. On the one hand, education advocates individual education; On the other hand, it advocates moral character and the eternal sense of correcting mistakes. However, all moral characters are bound in many social rules and regulations. If too much attention is paid, it will make people stick to this framework, thus restricting their development. Nowadays, no matter what happens, people are always used to putting morality in the first place, as if something goes against morality, which leads to monstrous sins. Moral character should be a tool to assist a person to develop well, rather than a cage of education infused in his mind all the time. What has been accomplished, in today’s world, this smooth and good-speaking world has already been obliterated and followed. Nowadays, both school education and social education seem to tell people that they should learn to be tactful and look at their faces in order to seek the favorable impression of their faces and then gain fame. Just imagine, such a position must be ingenious and understandable. Since this is the case, it must be rounded, how can there be one? This is why Chinese education failed. This is an important reason why the Nobel Prize cannot be awarded. (10) numb now, for many things, I am almost numb. I have written a survey report on the uncivilized phenomenon of college students. However, I admit that when I was writing, my heart was almost as strong as before. For those uncivilized phenomena, there is even a little impulse to jump and try the method. There is no anger at all! (Xi) follow the trend long ago, there were many inculcations. Don’t follow the trend. But the fact is, it seems that as soon as we are born, we will walk on the road of drifting. Now I feel that I am on the edge of the mainstream Road, which is very unreal. In fact, the word “follow the flow” is very contradictory. Whether it is necessary or not, broad sense and chivalry, most of them are always drifting in this or that aspect. It is applied to all fields, and is tirelessly taught by all fields to the next generation: never follow the trend! (12) future and future, this is the most confusing and torturing word. Most of them are tortured by this word. Or busy for it, or groveling for it, or studying hard for its cold window, or bearing humiliation for it, or getting up early and greedy for black, or eating for it, or cry for it without tears, or die for it. What he did, what he thought and said, and what he changed and confused were all for him. But he? Walking with life can be said to be endless in life. He and Wang were embarrassed, so they were often made miserable by him. However, we still have to continue! Because life continues, life continues. Because the future is still there, there are infinite possibilities. Because there is no limit to possibilities, strive hard

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