Month: April 2019

My Sky Blue

Alone, sitting quietly in the empty room, letting tears fly freely. How could he say that? How could? Almost at the same time, there came a rush of knocks outside the door. I wiped away my tears, hiding my inner displeasure. I smiled slightly and opened the door. It turned out to be my father. I was shocked at that time. He should be in the amusement hall at this time! Why did he come? My father looked at me. I quickly turned my eyes to a corner for fear that he would see my sad look. My father pulled my hand and said with concern: Why are you unhappy? I turned my head and answered with a smile: hehe! How? Why don’t you play games anymore! My father smiled slightly: stop fighting! Son, no matter how strong the wind is or how heavy the rain is, you must stand up! Said, patted my shoulder and left. I am began to write formally in November, 2010. The first short story “going through the disaster” made me want to write something for them through my parents’ understanding and familiarity with the unfortunate experience of Liu’s family in the village? Finally, I started the writing of the novel “going through the disaster. Since then, I have been sticking to my habit of writing. I can’t remember the specific date of that day clearly. I only remember that when I went to QQ at night, my cousin saw me online and said hello: cousin doing? I replied: I have been writing novels cousin: how much contribution did you get for writing novels? I answered angrily: once I decide to do something, I won’t think too much about how much benefits it can bring me. I just hope that my work will be recognized by readers! Cousin: cut, send a disdainful expression! I didn’t say much. I downloaded QQ, and at that moment, my fragile tears were all over my cheeks. For several days, I was listless, saying: how could he do this? You are my cousin! Did I just give up the literature which accounts for 1/3 or even 2/3 of my life? Beating my chest for countless times and asking, looking up at the sky, is my sky destined to be a haze? If you give up your cousin in this way, you should laugh more. I endured the pain and kept diverting my attention. I either walked through the colorful streets alone, or went to the gym in the nearby cultural square to play ball with strange table tennis lovers for an hour or two, let all the unhappiness disappear. On the third day, I finally mentioned the pen again, expressing my feelings, my favorite proses and novels. The successful completion of the novel “crazy man” made me more determined the road under my feet, just as Napoleon said: the glory of life is not never failure, but the reason is that the new novel “naked marriage” has been updated after “crazy man. I love words almost crazily. When I get off work, I just sit by the computer and beat another kind of life belonging to me: one day, I will make those who despise me look at me with special eyes. These days, it rained all day long, and there is always a blue sky of my own deep inside.

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Sick time

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Past the wind

Fifteen years ago, I berthed in this old street in the way of living. Fifteen years later, I returned here in the same way. The difference is that at that time I was still a girl who was not deeply involved in the world, but now I am already the mother of an ignorant teenager. Time flies. Today’s old streets are naturally different from the past. The roads are wider, there are fewer stalls along the streets, there are more regular shops, and there are also gyms, beauty salons, pedicure centers and so on. The only thing that still had the shadow of that year was the low buildings with cement walls in the street and the road under the feet, which was full of trees and from south to north. I remember at that time, my day’s life started from this low building. Entering here is due to a distant relative. Since I just started working and there was no housing in the unit, the relative who grew up with my father who lived near the unit warmly invited me to live in her home, which was the old street. To be exact, I am lived under the same roof with an old grandfather, who was the eunuch of a relative. The family of three relatives lived in another residence not far from here. They just came over during the meal, but I won’t have dinner with them. To be honest, though I am not shy, I am not lively enough. At the bottom of my bones, there is a lake-like loneliness. No matter who I am, I only have a gentle smile. The silent indifference wrapped himself and declined others. As for this relative, although he knew it from childhood, he was not familiar with it. However, relatives are also good. Maybe because I come from her hometown, seeing me, I will always touch some soft strings deep in my memory. Whenever I get along with me alone, I will talk about some nearly yellow past events. Among them, there are my grandmother, my grandfather, my aunt, my father, my mother, and even those grandma, mother-in-law, uncle and aunt who have met me once or have never met me. My relatives were not satisfied, but I was naturally the quietest and faithful listener. Although there are all kinds of discomfort depending on others, it is safe to live in such a way. However, at the same time, another melancholy, like a shadow, never gave up on me. This is my job. As for work, now I think it’s not too much to describe me at that time with my youth’s ignorance of the world. In order to choose a satisfactory unit, other students tossed up and down without knowing how many hours they spent. And I spent the whole morning, glanced at it hurriedly, and finally settled down. My father had a saying at that time that it didn’t matter whether the salary was or not. Anyway, he didn’t lack the money. He worked first and then adjusted later. And it was expected that this sentence pushed me into a dilemma. It doesn’t matter whether the monthly salary is enough. 260 yuan is almost half of that of classmates, and even less than half of it. In addition, she had to deduct 60 yuan for the section chief, because she said that girls had to learn to save money. And I am also embarrassed to work and stretch out my hand with my parents. In addition, a finance section 7 are women, they say, Three women a play, now pour, 7 a woman just sing two, a chief led, a for general ledger led by the rest of her is a is me, sitting opposite the section chief, it belongs to the general ledger. These were nothing. The key point was that I found that there was almost no opportunity for further study and study here, which made me really uncomfortable and even a little desperate at that time. Since I just entered the company and had nothing to do, I almost read all the novels written by Qiong Yao cenkellen. I couldn’t remember clearly. I really made up a romance lesson. The only comfort is the letter from my classmates. Only there, in the words and the transmission of Swan Goose, can I look at myself naked and pour out myself. Finally one day, several classmates said that they would go back to their alma mater and come to Yangzhou to visit me. My classmates and friends, how happy I should have been after reunion. But in this world, happiness always brings sorrow. A few teenagers were all proud of themselves, and unexpectedly, they chose a foreign land as their hometown by mistake. In their relatives’ houses, they cooked and drank. Although he got permission from his relatives at that time, he was a family after all. One night, when I was cooking a simple meal in my small house as usual, the male host suddenly came in and asked me with a low face, why didn’t I come back after eating in the office, I suddenly understood everything. When I was a teenager, I had a strong self-esteem and almost never suffered any injustice along the way. Now, under the naked gaze of others, I can’t stand it mentally. Although he still smiled apologetically at that time, once he left, I interrupted dinner and turned around to enter the thick night …… but now, I come back here again, the baptism of time, let me have a considerate heart. I know that although relatives are kind and sincere, after all, a family is not alone. As a group individual, she wants to survive healthily, which is not only related to human feelings, money, but also to her mood, habit etc. Perhaps, to some extent, my groundless intrusion disturbed some factors of others. Therefore, after years, when I recalled it again, the grievance as surging as tsunami had already disappeared. Besides missing them, I also felt grateful and deeply sorry for them. I knew that my rudeness and hasty leaving would certainly embarrass my relatives, it will definitely bring some troubles to her family. A few days ago, I also called her and found that she had stopped working. I figured out that either my daughter grew up now and went to her place. Anyway, at this moment, for the roof that once accepted me, for the family that once cared about me, the past is unhappy and scattered with the wind. If we can meet each other, only blessing! Including my colleagues in an office who don’t know where I am now……

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Sick time

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People and literature

[Introduction] the concept that literature should be people-oriented and take humanitarian spirit as the soul, which emphasizes that literature must start from human beings and must focus on human beings, and opposes to use human description as a tool and means, but regard people as the purpose of literature;

Herringbone is composed of a simple structure. Herringbone is mutually supportive, interdependent, cooperative, combined and promoted, which points out the direction for the development among people. The essence of human beings lies in human beings themselves, and human beings rise from sensory entity to thinking entity. The highest nature of human beings and the purpose of their survival lie in human feelings formed in will, thinking and emotion, spiritual entities such as perception and consciousness are the natural nature of human beings. Human is a feeling subject that cognizes the world by feeling, which gradually forms the core content of human, namely human self. People are a process from birth to death. The best thing in life is to experience the process without caring about the result. In the whole process of life, no matter it is smooth or rough, no matter it is sweet or hard work, it is all scenery. You have to walk through, pass through and spend, better than you have to pass, if you are sad, you have to pass it. The key is that you can pass it. As long as you work hard to create the most beautiful thing in your life, you will never waste your life or waste your life. To live is to enjoy the process of living; There are two dimensions in life, one is to enjoy the process, the other is to pursue results, the process is the key point, which is quantitative change one by one, which is to seek qualitative change that can be reversed, the result is the mark to outline the life process. Therefore, literature guides people to improve themselves, be honest and trustworthy, treat others sincerely, make morality permeate and promote each other, people can influence each other, and the advantages and disadvantages will also transform each other, only when people’s thoughts and feelings are cultivated, spiritual life is enriched, moral realm can be improved, and people can understand the mystery of life and find the true meaning of harmonious mentality. This is the spiritual territory of people. Human nature is the sum of all social relationships. The unsatisfied nature of human beings means that human beings are not satisfied with the status quo, which leads to the stronger desire (knowledge) and practical desire of human beings, thus making the continuous development and progress of human beings themselves. Therefore, the issue of maintaining the inner humanity and human status of literature and art is highlighted, and people’s value and independence are paid attention to and publicized at the value level, there was no doubt that it was a valuable theoretical breakthrough in that particular period, thus on the one hand, it made a necessary theoretical foundation for the proposal of the viewpoint of literature subjectivity in the future; on the other hand, it also strongly supported the literature creation at that time to better describe and analyze human nature. Human nature is not satisfied. The unsatisfied nature of human beings means that human beings are not satisfied with the status quo. For example, people all like to listen to praises and are unwilling to listen to criticisms. The evolutionary history of human beings also indirectly proves that human nature is unsatisfied. From the perspective of the evolution of social history and culture, people have experienced roughly the same stage and accumulated common factors in the aspects of material life needs, psychology, emotion, aesthetic consciousness, etc, and keep it until today. Common humanity is also a part of social reality relationship. People not only live in class relationship, but also describe the common form of humanity such as ethics, morality, religion, etc, evaluate historical and moral requirements. Taking the description of human and humanity as the starting point of literature is people-oriented, and taking the publicity of humanitarian spirit as the basic requirement of literature not only firmly establishes the foundation of literature, it also provides important theoretical preparation for the proposal of the viewpoint of literature subjectivity and the exploration of the essence of literature aesthetics, and clears up necessary space for the overall promotion and breakthrough and innovation of literature and art research, it is a great harvest of literary theory in the new era. People-oriented is to embody people’s moral character and personality, dignity and conscience, and is the personality habit developed by people in the social environment, it is determined by complex and simple different lifestyles such as the interest relationship between people around life and others. So as to grasp oneself and practice boldly, making people more knowledgeable, more cultured and educated, the more civilized people will be, and the more moving thoughts and behaviors will be guided in the right direction. The ideological content of literary works is to guide, inspire and shape people with positive and healthy thoughts and noble sentiments. Literature is learning literature, and books and documents written in words are collectively called literature. Literature is a kind of humanistic ideology, which reflects social life and expresses thoughts and feelings by recording the voice of soul in words, making people have profound artistic connotation and unique charm, it is the integration of people’s ideological development, interpreting different languages and shaping brains, and generating different cultures and perceptions. Let oneself have the ability of observation, novel imagination, rich philosophical meaning and profound implication. The gist of literature is to focus on the big points and focus on the small points, and to love and pursue beautiful things. Since literature is based on human nature, it is certainly not necessary for literature to be based on human nature. Without human nature, it is not only difficult to arouse people’s interest, but also impossible for people to understand. The reason why great works produced by different ages, nations and classes can be loved by all mankind is that there is universal humanity as the common foundation. For example, people’s ideal and humanitarian spirit should be the decisive part of creation in their world view. Moreover, human dignity, human value, human rights, humanity, human feelings, freedom and so on are not only gradually active in artists’ writing, but also become an important direction of discussion in literary theory circle. Undoubtedly, from the depth of thought to the innovation of art, literary works must have distinct personality, and must be unique and deeply rooted in the depth of social reform and national spirit, only in this way can we hope to set up monuments in the history of literature. This requires that writers must have a distinct spirit of subject consciousness. On the contrary, if the subjective consciousness of writers is rigid, lacking individual independent spirit and freedom of individual soul, the subjective spirit of writers is either extreme imprisonment or extreme indulgence, which are two tendencies, its source also. Traditional literature and modern literature wander outside the Times and politics, not only dislike modern urban civilization, but also love beauty in life, thus forming the cognitive expression of literature subject, it effectively absorbs the essence of traditional culture, implements modern transformation of traditional culture, and shows the literary aesthetic ideal integrating classical ideal and modern culture, the literary aesthetic orientation of communicating reality and ideal with art. The concept that literature should be people-oriented and take humanitarian spirit as the soul, which emphasizes that literature must start from human beings and must focus on human beings, and opposes to using human description as a tool and means, but to regard people as the purpose of literature; The healthy and upward life and the beautiful nature of human nature, in form, the sense of form of literary aesthetics requires harmony and appropriateness, it fully reflects the beauty of life, the beauty of literature and the harmony of people-oriented. Affirm the existence of common humanity and universal humanity; The expression and thinking of literature run through many aspects such as society, times, life, nation, etc, it fully shows that writers communicate the aesthetic consciousness of literature noumenon level with self-subject active spirit and the aesthetic redemption of changing real life with culture. Literature is the deep theoretical basis of exploring humanistic spirit, which makes people go to the real life world. The thoughts and emotions expressed by literature are directly rooted in the real life. Insight into the living experience of real people, pay attention to, respect and shape people, and provide humanistic spirit, core cultural concept, reasonable way and observation method for human development practice. The understanding of human relations gradually moves towards dialectics, which enriches people’s understanding of human nature and human nature connotation, and continuously deepens the theoretical viewpoints of contemporary literature creation practice, it has made theoretical preparations for the description and expression of human nature in literature creation in the new era, which is fundamentally based on the realistic grasp and interpretation of the times of human and its essential human nature, existence and historical development law, it is fundamental and constructive. Literature plays a guiding role in people’s thoughts, moistens social harmony and catalyzes people’s progress. Literature is to improve people’s quality and guide people’s spiritual life and material life ideological response. The literary culture is constantly colliding, blending and complementing, which produces variation, showing the fresh vitality of literary culture and inspiring people’s love and pursuit for beautiful things.

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qiu yu

[Introduction] as a wife and a mother, they all try their best to be the best of themselves. Although sometimes they complain to their husband and are willful, they are more about caring, understanding and sharing for him, I want to make myself the pride of his whole life.

Unconsciously, autumn has come. Farewell to the hot summer in 2010, I feel relaxed and comfortable in my heart! Autumn is a season of maturity and harvest, and this season is my favorite every year. But autumn is also a nostalgic and melancholy day!! Just after class, I received a phone call from my good friend, inviting me to go out. I was in high spirits, but I felt pain in my waist and back and stiff body. I also feel funny. It seems that I am not the one I used to be. What’s the matter? Have you really entered middle age. Hehe, unconsciously, I spent another year in sloshing. The vicissitudes of the sea and the sadness of departure were unexpectedly my lingering complex. I felt that I was no longer young, and the cicadas burst into bursts, gradually moving away from youth in the changing seasons. A few days ago, I received a call from a classmate from afar. I was happy at first, but somehow I had more vicissitudes and calmness, chatting about some past events many years ago and myself today. Behind our happy life, we all have some helplessness and sigh with emotion. It is not unhappiness, but an extra responsibility and pressure, gradually numb to many things, and the only desire in the indifferent heart is slowly melting. As a wife and a mother, they all try their best to be the best of themselves. Although sometimes they complain to their husband and are willful, they are more caring, understanding and sharing for him, I want to make myself the pride of his whole life. Be a mother like a bosom friend, and let her daughter be more confident and healthy because of her mother’s encouragement on the road of growing up! Life is just like the weather. There are both depression and sunshine. Every time I see my parents over 60 years old, they are so cheerful, wise and easygoing. Yesterday, I giggled with my dad on the internet. My mom said that you, a silly girl, would never grow up. Yeah! Seeing their parents feel that they are so happy, they can also act coquetry in front of their mother and father. When they are ill, their daughter can also do her best to repay and thank their parents! Yeah! Time goes by. Autumn is the season to pick up memory fragments, and it is also a season to make people lazy. The only thing that makes people active is brain cells. In this season, we are imagining, grateful and cherishing, we are recalling that it will not be far away in the sad winter, but we just know that autumn is actually a transition from warm to cold. Through autumn, it is a journey of heart. Believe in yourself, release yourself in every bright moment, seize every happy moment, and strive to live a better life for yourself and your family. If you get drunk, you will know that you are drunk, and if you love, you will know that! Click on the floating life, cherish the touch in your heart!

Like (prose editor: Ke Er) the snow in spring

Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring…

Waiting

Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain…

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On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites…

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Sick time

I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Sunny looked the rain

When I was very young, I had heard that a colorful bridge of seven colors would appear in the sky, which was very beautiful, but I had never seen it before. When I read and read, I knew the word rainbow and knew it was a refraction of light. The appearance of rainbows is not so common. It is usually in the summer afternoon, when the rain drops suddenly in a sunny day, then it will clear up quickly, and the sun will come out again, it is easy to see. Therefore, every summer, especially in the afternoon, I expect a dark cloud in the golden sky to suddenly drop heavy rain, and then I will finish the heavy rain quickly. It is still sunny, and I can see the rainbow that I have been looking forward to for a long time. Unfortunately, I have never encountered this kind of situation once. Even if I touch the shower occasionally, I have never seen the rainbow that I have been longing for for for a long time. My understanding of rainbow can only be limited to pictures or pictures in TV movies, but I have never seen it with my own eyes. On a sunny day, I had a kind of expectation, looking forward to a rain and a rainbow after the rain. This kind of expectation continues from my childhood to now, but there is also a yearning in my regret. The beauty of nature can only be met, not sought. I am lucky to meet it, but not to meet my life. I will still watch the rain on a sunny afternoon in summer and the Rainbow after the rain in the bottom of my heart. I always pay attention to the weather, whether it is sunny or rainy, whether it is sunny or rainy, and then give a kind reminder to my relatives and friends. Maybe it was my yearning for rainbow, or my concern for rain and sunny. When I knew that my body was breeding little life, he gave her the name Yuqing without thinking. My husband said, Yuqing seems to be a girl’s name, how can I be so sure that it is a girl. I am very sure that it must be a girl, I can feel it. In order to comfort my husband, I took another boy’s name: Yuyang. My husband laughed and said, “I don’t want to change the medicine. It is similar to Yuqing and Yuyang. Why are you so interested in yuyaqing. I didn’t explain, so my husband accepted my special feelings for rain and sunny silently. The baby was born, and it was indeed a girl. I was very happy, and my husband also followed me happily. When filling in the birth certificate of the child, my husband said one sentence: The name will accompany the child for a lifetime. I suddenly hesitated. I can’t impose my preference, yearning and hope on my children with my consciousness. I don’t want to do anything to others, nor can I do anything to others. Therefore, she asked her husband to find a dictionary and search it carefully. It is easy to write and shout, which is meaningful, simple and generous, and suitable for girls’ names. Yuqing, I can only keep it in my heart! I accidentally entered a group and saw a group of friends watching the rain on a sunny day. I felt warm. Everyone calls him sunny or sunny, but I like to call him rain or watch rain. Other friends teased me why I shouted differently. I said that because I like rainbows after rain, you called for sunny days. When I come to watch the rain again, I can see rainbows. All laugh. I didn’t ask him the source or meaning of the net name of watching rain on sunny days. Let me understand it like this, hehe. After a period of time, the name of this friend changed from watching rain on sunny days to watching rain on sunny days. I felt happy when I saw it. If I changed the order of these four words, the meaning seemed to be different. Watching rain on a sunny day is a kind of artistic conception, elegance, interest and calm in preparing for a rainy day; Watching rain on a sunny day is a kind of positive, optimistic and yearning, it is also a sunny mentality. Maybe this gentleman can play with words very well. Ha ha, I like watching rain on sunny days, and I also like watching rain on sunny days. Sunny days are rainy days. Under the sun, drops of water will turn into water vapor and rise to the air, accumulating into clouds. When the clouds thicken, rain will fall; When raindrops fall, dark clouds will disperse, and the hidden sunshine will fall again, rainy days will turn into sunny days. Sunny days and rainy days always alternate like this. I can’t change, just like the road of my life, when it is sunny, when it is windy and muddy. When the sun comes out, I can enjoy the warmth of the sunshine; When the raindrops drop down, I can also enjoy the moisturizing taste of the rain dew. There is no need to complain about the heat of sunshine or the humidity of rain. When there is sunny, there will be rain, and it will also be sunny after rain. Whether it is rainy or sunny, it is the weather that nature gives me. Accept it, and then feel it with a happy attitude, just like feeling the Four Seasons and life! After passing through the station of life, I forgot the original appearance. There will always be storms and sunshine in the long corridor of time, and a blue sky in the process of life! After the rain, the heart is also sunny; The rain in the sunny, the rainbow is also charming! Looking at the Tide calmly, I bid farewell to yesterday’s meaningless sadness. My heart is still like a gentle coast, even though I have passed thousands of sails and kept a beautiful imagination, cherish the collection of the whole life sunny day to watch the rain, rainy day to watch the sunny day, a kind of interest, a state of mind.

Like (prose editor: prose online) the snow in spring

Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring…

Waiting

Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain…

Be good at listening to different voices and opinions

On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites…

Read The Bridges of Madison County

“When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted…

From today on, I want to be happy

I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me…

Sick time

I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Write a letter as a posthumous note

When I prepared dinner yesterday evening and put the dishes, I realized that I was going to fall down as soon as I opened the refrigerator door. Struggling to stand firm, lying on the ground when waking up, the refrigerator door was still open, but the refrigerator was pushed away from the original position by me, and the vegetable box fell on the ground, the medicine cabinet on the next cabinet also pulled me down, and the ground was messy. The time is just 7 o’clock. This state has lasted for seven years, and it is always hard to find out whether it is good or bad. Hanbao told me that you have been to so many places by yourself. If you go to see the witch doctor, will you be tricked? I smiled and asked him, why are you superstitious? In fact, I know it’s full of worries. I also remembered that in those years, my friends around my sisters in the same dormitory were often caught off guard by me because of such a situation. Thinking of how they cried when they woke up, everyone thought my life was over. I also remembered that year when the swallow cried and asked the doctor to rescue me. The doctor was as indifferent as late at night, and other sisters raised money to pay the hospitalization deposit in the middle of the night. Later I heard them talk about it! I was really guilty. In those years, I was always bothering them. After getting up, I continued to cook dinner. My young son asked me why the meal was not ready yet? He is hungry, I smile at him, it is fast! I wanted to call Hanbao, but I was afraid that he would be worried, so I gave up. Now he is the only friend who has more contact with me. Later he came to think that I should write a letter earlier asking him to hand it over to my relatives when I leave this world in the future, please be sure to take my bone ash back. Anyway? I am don’t want to stay in other places. He also took care of my emotions when he arrived, saying that he would keep it if possible. But this is not an object after all. I said you planted a tree there, right? He asked the reason, but I answered unexpectedly that it was said to be a good fertilizer. He asked reluctantly, even if he was dead, he still thought about environmental protection? As a weak woman, what kind of environmental protection can I do? It’s nothing but love. Some friends say that I am alarmist. Whether you love it or not, it’s alarmist! Everyone should do his or her duty well. I called my mother, chatted, and pulled a boy out of school. Mom asked me, are you crazy? What did you say? I mean, your daughter has already been an adult. Don’t you understand? In the evening, I seriously talked with Jian Bao about the suicide note, and also talked about some things in these years. He still insisted that I should burn incense or count my life. How can I not understand that mood? Such a good friend often worries people. In fact, I never thought that I would really fail to get up. I always feel that I am in good health. Even if I go to Qinghai-Tibet Plateau alone, I am also good. Even if I don’t have altitude sickness, how can my body have problems? However, life is originally so changeable. Even if I am so young, there is nothing wrong with leaving a suicide note. I thought of the insurance I bought. The beneficiaries were all sons, but he might not understand, so I packed up all the receipts! Today, I am also at home alone. In the morning, I boil eggs and make coffee. Occasionally, I also make tea and read books by myself. There has always been no chapter in my words. Without chapter, there is no chapter! It’s just something you want.

Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring

Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring…

Waiting

Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain…

Be good at listening to different voices and opinions

On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites…

Read The Bridges of Madison County

“When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted…

From today on, I want to be happy

I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me…

Sick time

I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Blank thoughts

I will continue to stay with this city in another way

I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends…

[Original essay] string words

Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or…

Forever military dream

Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually…

Spring rain

I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan…

Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified)

Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree…

Self

The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Religiousness

I have no religious belief and envy the happiness of believers. This is a sentence in the netizen’s diary. Now it is more appropriate to explain my opinion on a friend. In May, it will be hot, and it is very hot, the heat is very abnormal, and the hot people are in a fidgety mood. There were people in a hurry on the road. They didn’t know what was going on now. Everyone was so busy that they even became nervous and sad after the smiles on their faces were confiscated. A chance encounter is encounter. No, I met almost one of my childhood friends on this complicated road. We haven’t met each other for about ten years. His body was still straight, much fatter than before. Most of his hair was gray, and his face was a little vicissitudes. His eyes were drooping and his eyes were dull. If he hadn’t called me in surprise, I wouldn’t have recognized him. I insisted that he would come to my home to get together, but he refused. It seemed that he was very busy, but I repeatedly invited him, and he hesitated to agree. I asked him if he was okay? I asked. Fortunately, I taught in primary school. He said lightly, how are you? Hehe, look at my thin body, you should know that it is not good, at least it has not grown meat. I joked. There is nothing to worry about? He still had a plain tone. Alas! Why not? It’s a trivial matter for our ordinary people, and it’s also a national event. What about housing prices and prices? But with the government, I can’t do it even if I want to do it. Ha ha ha! Are you still so poor?! There was a smile on his rare face. Do you have a church? He hesitated to ask the Church?! I some confusion. I am entrusted by the Lord to teach you the Gospel of the Lord. Hehe, you are religious….. I some am dumb. It is true that everyone has the freedom to believe in religion, but he also believed that he was so excellent that I felt a little strange in my heart. During a lunch, he spared no effort to spread his gospel. He said he came to atone for his sin, because he didn’t spread God’s will and repeatedly asked for God’s forgiveness; he talked about the disciples of Jesus, as well as heaven, Angels and so on. I would also interject some teasing words, but seeing his dignified face, this inappropriate teasing was so embarrassing. He was about to go back. My mother and I sent him off. He tried his best to refuse, holding the door frame with his hands, bending down, hanging his eyes and saying to us in a low voice: The Lord is with you, bless you! At this moment, I saw the smile on his face, which was so warm and happy. He should have accomplished his mission today. I was unable to laugh at his devotion to the Lord and bent down subconsciously. Although I couldn’t say the same thing as him, but I have said many times in my heart to bless him. I don’t have any religious belief, so I can’t understand his mysterious feelings towards religion either. I just feel that he is completely from another world, under his expression, something hidden beyond our soul became vulgar, indisputable, self-free and indifferent, as if even his body was not his, I don’t know how many years of practice it takes to reach his state, but I do see his happiness. Maybe someday, I should also believe in some kind of religion, as devout as him, to be indifferent, no struggle, no me.

Like (prose editor: Ke Er) the snow in spring

Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring…

Waiting

Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain…

Be good at listening to different voices and opinions

On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites…

Read The Bridges of Madison County

“When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted…

From today on, I want to be happy

I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me…

Sick time

I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Simple Life

Every day when I go to work, I have to pass by the food street in the most prosperous part of the town. When I passed by in the morning, it was also deserted there. The people who were walking in drizzle, the office workers who were in a hurry and the cleaners who cleaned the streets seemed to be as ordinary as me. On both sides of the street, only snack bars and small department stores selling breakfast were open, and the other luxurious and rich food cities were closed tightly. Maybe the people inside were sleeping soundly. However, when passing by at noon and evening, the scene there directly became two contrasting worlds with the morning. Especially in the evening, in the twinkling of neon lights, the heads and tails of luxury cars on both sides of the street are connected, stretching for several miles, like two huge Dragons crossing the road. The crowds of men and women who got off the bus, dressed brightly and with spring breeze, showed nobility and pride, and rushed to the reserved paradise. The wine and vegetables on the upstairs are fragrant, singing and dancing are endless, mixed with the sound of guessing boxing and talking laughter, resounding through the sky. There are even those who are drunk and confused, who are full of wine and full of food, and return happily, or talk loudly, or swallow clouds and mist, with infinite scenery. In each situation, and my generation shabby phase compared, vastly different, quite different. When talking with my colleagues, most of them lamented that the world was dirty and went into Qingshui Yamen. Because the diners in the street of delicious food are either civil servants of government departments, or the pursuers who dominate the business world, and they have power or money to support. And now almost difficult to family of teachers, face less the 700 or 800 multi-is 1000 or 2000 of a meal, is fault with daring. Today, when prices are soaring, every penny is split into two halves, and we often catch our elbows when there is no clear soup or water. How dare we climb the stairs of the food street? In addition to lamenting, natural loss; In addition to loss, natural dissatisfaction; In addition to dissatisfaction, natural depression. As time passes, I am lack of initiative, work is perfunctory, life is dull, and my mood is in a mess. Sometimes, when I am not satisfied with the reality, I miss the work and life in the countryside. In the countryside, because there is no temptation of high consumption places, the monthly salary is acceptable for living. Sometimes colleagues and friends get together, drinking and eating meat, but they also enjoy themselves. The sun rises as usual every day, works in an orderly manner every day, and lives are delicious every day. Refreshed, nothing. I once remembered that during the more than ten years after I took part in the work, when I gave the rest of my salary to my parents, my parents who had struggled for most of their lives on the poverty line, I am always greatly satisfied with my meager income. They always told me not to forget the foundation of being a man, to work steadfastly, to repay the society and to serve my job well. This kind of income with wheat yellow every month, which can not be blown away by the wind and can not be damaged by the rain, enough to live comfortably, bi shang bu zu bi xia you yu, so to meet. Maybe it is the instruction and guidance of parents. Although they have been in trouble for more than ten years, they are in a sunny and cheerful mood when facing a simple life. Nowadays, this kind of openness and sunshine is overcast by the huge contrast. Life is still simple, but mood becomes complicated. If you think about it carefully, apart from the objective factors of reality, it is also an important factor for you to lose your mind, move to gods and demons, and be in chaos. We are too small to change the reality and situation, but we can change ourselves. Just like running from the countryside to the city, heart is the key. To take a step back, there was nothing wrong with running to the city. As long as you don’t compare, expect or pay attention to anything, you will still do your own thing. Simple life and simple happiness will not have so many laments and negativity. Being able to live in the countryside in the downtown is a state and open-minded. We are confused because we forget the original simplicity and simplicity, and are blinded by the noise and neon of the city. As the saying goes, it is hard to fill one’s life. Only by sticking to one’s own happiness and not enviing other people’s life is the real life. Like plant trees. After the tree species are planted, watering and fertilizing will be carried out. Only by cutting off the scattered branches with a sharp axe can it thrive. Otherwise, this tree can only be used as firewood in the end, not towering and straight. Therefore, don’t try to save others and the society. As long as you can save yourself, it is enough! It is not difficult to save yourself. After all, it is a simple life. If you plant a tree and a forest in your heart, do not forget to water and fertilize it. Remember to trim it frequently, and naturally it will form a shelter forest.

Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring

Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring…

Waiting

Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain…

Be good at listening to different voices and opinions

On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites…

Read The Bridges of Madison County

“When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted…

From today on, I want to be happy

I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me…

Sick time

I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

I knock and knock, “happy or not”

In order to complete 200 articles, Sima Wengong held a banquet with Shu Song and Shu dance for Liu Chan at the end of the Three Kingdoms. All of them were sad; Only Liu Chan was happy and self-righteous. Sima asked Zen whether he was thinking about Shu? Answer: enjoy here, don’t think about Shu. The happiness that I like knocking and knocking is probably already a part of happiness. I was going to have a rest, but when I was encouraged by my friends, I started to work again. My friend and I are similar in age, and I also have the same dream about bed rain and different bed. So the eighty-year-old mother-in-law learned embroidery, and started to work hard again. Friends like to send some gifts, what to send? Not in the previous years, the use of food is no longer rare. If I brought fruits and cakes, my friend would surely say, “I have to accept yours. Take away a lot of things here when I leave. In other words: I have learned your things, please take them back. If I brought ham and bacon, my friend might say again: it’s just right. There are still a lot in my storage room. Stay here to help me eat all these things and then go back. Isn’t it a trouble to send these now. Old people like friendship and memories, and send them memories and friendship. Friends will accept them happily and never say to you: you take them back, and you will understand them. Someone reminded me that I was too active. Ah! I’m happy. It is a lot of happy things to be dull and dull all your life, and to taste the active taste at the end of your life. Moreover, in high spirits, it is difficult to brake halfway. There is a saying in the world that five steps are full of laughter, but the opposite is the meaning. After 50 steps, why fear a hundred steps! There is a story of “frog crying at night”: one person asks when he hears frog crying at night. It turned out that the Dragon King had orders, and those who had tails were killed. I also asked you that you have no tail? Frog cried and answered: “I have no tail today, but I used to have a tail when I was a child. At that time, I was still a tadpole with a tail. Frog thought so much that it turned out to be a historical issue. The aftermath of the long-standing days of taking a deep post. They all day narrow mindedness, I do not know the world has changed. Some people don’t agree with writing something; It’s better to live in the past years than to live in the sky! Computers are really good at playing tricks on people. I obviously typed the pinyin YYTN, which should have been a year of living, How could it be inexplicably turned into raising a cow on the screen. I was stunned and silly at first, and then laughed and laughed. With a silly smile and a joy, I remembered a colleague, an old cow, who led a cow to the hillside to graze every day. It was a pity that he didn’t buy a flute, which lacked the poetic and comfortable feeling of the shepherd boy returning to cross the ox back and the Piccolo blowing without any words. Alas! He shouldn’t not buy a flute, even if he doesn’t know how to play, it’s better to pretend. The computer brother unexpectedly asked me to raise a cow. How could there be a rare Shepherd Boy With Silver head? If fate really wanted me to raise a cow, if I bought a flute, I might have to: the white-haired shepherd boy followed the ox tail, stumbled and couldn’t think of returning; The setting sun left a seat on the back of the ox, and the number of the jackdaws. Or: The steps are stumbling like a dragon Bell, and the old cattle are full of fun; I don’t know when and when, so I have to knock in my sleep. Some people say that writing articles is boring. Green vegetables and radishes have their own love, eat, drink and have fun. When it is good to make a fortune, there are also some people who are always looking at the huge wealth and hesitating; When they are happy to be an official, there are some people who sigh in the end; When they are famous and happy, there are also some people who sigh: long live. Moreover, some people will say: nothing is interesting. Life is proud, full of glory, and full of pride. Turning around and spring is over, things are like spring dreams without trace! If you ask me what is the picture of knocking and beating, I will tell you that it is a relaxed, happy and cozy picture. As the ancients said: you will become famous, and he will harvest gold and silver, and some people will prosper, I beg longevity. It is not for the purpose of making much sense, but for the reason that striking is always haunting me. Come in dreams, come when eating, and also on the road. Sometimes and let it go, sometimes it is reluctant. So I often string a pen on the key ring, and write down the inspiration on the paper at any time. If you haven’t learned writing, you can only graffiti. Strictly speaking, it can’t be regarded as an article. For example, poetry doesn’t follow the rhythm at a glance. I am thought that ancient poetry was also compiled by people, and there were many variations of a word Brand. Moreover, the tune had long been lost, and only the body was left. As long as it was not easy to pronounce, why bother to haggle over every ounce. Zhang Wentao, a person from Qing Dynasty, once said: The article system was born, and only the generalists had temperament; The model of Song dynasty regulated that Tang dynasty suffered from hardship, and the ancients had died without any dispute. How could this age be more conservative than Zhang Wentao. Minyan words three times light like water. There must be a lot of light as water in my chapter, but I was willing to give up and like to pour myself and drink the light as water. The result was just like the operation in front of the stove, which was sweet, sour, bitter, red, yellow, white and green, fried, I just want to suit my taste. The ancients said that the accumulated soil can form mountains, If I gather the scattered soil together, it will be interesting if I can pile it into a small soil bag. Maybe I will be so happy that I can’t sleep at night. In the past year or so, the past has been blurred. Do you still write or not? Fortunately, it is for leisure and fun, not for history writing, and there is no need to pick bones in eggs and tofu. Generally speaking, the main brain should be set up to seal needlework; However, the main brain is not easy to fix, and the needlework is more difficult to seal. A mere drama is not about history, non-theory, non-outline and non-Chapter. Why do you take it seriously. Socrates has a famous saying: Don’t ask me, I know nothing. Jiang Kui’s words are even more wonderful: what people say is easy for me to say, and what people say is hard for me to say. I like Socrates’s words, and I prefer Jiang Kui’s words. The wonderful scene of the article is that the words are simple but deeply affectionate. Ah, that’s a specialist’s business. I can’t do it. I can’t do it with ingenious thoughts and beautiful words, and I can’t even make a sound of gold and stone. Confucius advocated wandering in art, but he couldn’t remember many words, which was firmly remembered. When I was a child, I heard that the students who didn’t have one pen were primary school students, and the students who didn’t have two pens were middle school students. At that time, I thought that college students must have three pens. Later, I went to college without even a pen. Now I often wear a pen. Oh! It turned out to be a primary school student without worrying too much. In ancient times, there was a story of a northerner eating Ling: a Northerner had never seen a water chestnut eating with a shell, and someone reminded him to peel off the shell, the Northerner said angrily that he liked to eat together with the shell. Maybe when I was writing an article, I ate together with the shell. Short text in zhi zhi man man, think fast tool Gordian knot have the heart. As the saying goes, my child’s face is also his own. Yes, it is not easy to have a baby in October, so I am not willing to use a knife. Anyway, if you want to be healthy and happy, you can turn into a wine bag without eating all day long. I felt that I was struck again and made a syllable to laugh at myself and amuse myself: people who have passed 70 years are known as ancient and rare; The years are heavy, and I can’t sigh! With time going by, powerlessness; For stay memory, keystroke unceasingly! Life is too short, and the road is too crooked; If you care about everything, what is it? Sweet, sour, bitter and bitter, no taste; Suddenly looking back, how much sigh!

Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring

Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring…

Waiting

Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain…

Be good at listening to different voices and opinions

On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites…

Read The Bridges of Madison County

“When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted…

From today on, I want to be happy

I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me…

Sick time

I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…