Month: February 2016

When I arrived at Chongyang again, I took the exam!

The autumn season is overcast and rainy, pattering. When it comes to Chongyang, the sky is high and the clouds are light, sunny and cool. For such festivals of gathering and respecting the elders, I am can’t go out of the room with their families to climb up and step on autumn. However, it is not difficult to pick a chrysanthemum and wear it without bringing dogwood to your head to ward off evil spirits. Chrysanthemum wine can not be tasted, chrysanthemum tea and chrysanthemum cakes can be bought, which can be used to stain the festive festivals and longevity of longevity customers. The sweet-scented osmanthus on the road along the river has been fragrant for a long time, and I really want to bring the dialect to visit the river in person, and feel the sweet and fragrant autumn dream. However, the dialect focuses on cartoons in TV programs and refuses to leave, so it has to be disappointed. However, in this scene of red maple drifting, warm and respectful love in Chongyang, I still think of some beautiful poems “recalling Shandong Brothers on September 9” (Wang Wei) I am a foreign guest alone in a foreign land, and I miss each other on festivals. I knew from afar that there was one less dogwood in my brother’s climbing place. Drunk flowers yin (Li Qingzhao) mist thick clouds sorrow forever Day, Rui brain selling gold beast. Festival and Chongyang, jade pillow sha chu, Midnight Cool early through. After the dusk, Dongli has a dark aroma. Mo Dao is not fascinating, the curtain rolls west wind, people are thinner than yellow flowers! However, I don’t have Li Qingzhao’s sentimental feelings and her extremely beautiful ancient words. Instead, I have the sentimental and thoughtful sigh in Wang Wei’s works. The scenery in the South Yard of Nanda is very beautiful, with green landscape trees, high and low. The winding corridor is clean and comfortable. Occasionally passing through a flock of ducks under the tree makes people feel surprised, thinking how could there be ducks here? Why don’t they decorate in the pool in the yard? Many students walked up and down leisurely in the college, and it was still early to leave the exam. However, many people hold a copy of review materials in their hands, which makes me curious. Why didn’t I? Hey, sorry, I want to ask, is this information in your hand sent? I couldn’t help calling a beautiful woman to inquire. Oh, this is the answer to the exam question bought at the school gate! The beauty was a little uncomfortable when I asked. I waved to him to show my recklessness. But looking at the answers to the exam questions held by all the adult examinees, I remembered the curtain called buy exam questions at the gate of the driver’s license, which was a little ridiculous. Facts proved that there were no so-called answers to the exam questions, so I saw the scene in which the examinees threw the information angrily on the concrete floor. The corridor of the comprehensive building in the College of South University is very spacious, and the secluded corridor replies when talking. If in the evening, there was a cold breeze passing by and a sudden glance back, it would really scare people and mistakenly believe that someone was following them. However, stepping on the high and low marble ladder, there is an illusion of time going back. It seemed that I came back to my school days, and the ignorant, pure and pure taste of youth kept drilling into my mind, which made me relaxed and happy, just like being young and teenagers, and also feeling relaxed, for the moment, I abandoned the rush of daily life. Maybe this is called Touching things! The classroom I referred to was in 510 miles. The tables and chairs inside were a little scientific, and the seats were as high and low as those in the cinema. While the White pink wall in the classroom has aged, with signs of peeling off. Together with the chalk foam on the blackboard, it gave me an affinity. Unexpectedly, it made me go back to the hour, back to the happy scene of my companions during the ten-minute break. In order to warm up, all my friends squeezed each other against the lime white wall, hoping to get a moment of warmth. At the same time of running, the cohesion between each other was increased, and the lime wall was also shedding. But I didn’t see the blackboard eraser in the classroom, but unexpectedly saw the blackboard pushed up and down, realizing the progress of culture and the times. Just as in this refreshing September, when I resigned from the youth, many enterprising people learned to put down. Put it down and go home to see the old man’s Double Ninth Festival, and run to re-enter the class that has been left for ten or even nearly twenty years. When I arrived at Chongyang again, I took the exam! I rushed to keep pace with the times, but it also made me recall the dream of the past youth. Time flies, youth is not there, this Chongyang, let me live thoughts (2010-10-17)

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Fear beautiful

Everyone has a kind of secret fear. The more beautiful things, the less dare no one to touch them. The things that are too beautiful are shocking, but also ominous. Sometimes they prefer to take the second place, mediocre, I feel it is long and safe, and I am afraid of overdrawing my happiness index. Not only love, not only beautiful people and things, but also those things that are too beautiful, too good, too profound, too cautious and too important, always avoid subconsciously. I dare not buy the most beautiful clothes; The person who wants to get close to me most dare not talk to him more; I am always worried that once these excessively beautiful things and the ordinary self at this time, if the plain life is connected, there will be an excessively strong impact force, and the original life will be crushed easily, so subconsciously avoid and detour consciously, just like a beautiful and horrible black hole, the light will spare it, or it will be swallowed. This almost became instinct and integrated with the defense mechanism of body and spirit. Around the excessively beautiful things, there is an invisible sign in my eyes, which says silence and avoidance. The more beautiful things are, the more they dare not touch them. It is a taboo and a prophecy of fate.

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Explore “induction”

[Introduction] since I have heard more about this kind of thing, I am also interested in it. I think it must be related to genetic information. Under certain circumstances, I will send a message for you to sense.

I once read a report in the 1960 s: there was a mother and son who lived in two cities more than 1,000 kilometers apart. One day, on the way to work, their son suddenly felt inexplicable abdominal pain, moreover, his pain symptoms showed that he had acute inflammation, and his colleagues took him to the hospital in a hurry. He had a comprehensive examination in the hospital, including the tests he deserved, but the result was that everything was normal without any inflammation, and the whole pain lasted for about one hour, after that, he returned to normal, and he returned home without any results. On the third day, he received a telegram sent by his mother’s client, in which he told him that because his mother had acute appendicitis, he was hospitalized and had an operation. He called to inform him that he hoped his son could rest assured, she will be discharged from hospital soon. Soon her mother was discharged from hospital, and learned in her letter that her mother’s acute onset time and operation process. At this time, he found that: the time of her mother’s onset pain, it happened at the same time as my inexplicable pain. He told this strange thing to his colleague. This incident aroused a lot of people’s curiosity at that time. Some people said it was the induction between relatives, while others said it was a whim. No matter which one it belonged to, before science proved it, it is a mystery. But I still focus on induction. In the past many years, I have heard a lot of things about induction, but the thing that can prove the truth and reliability most frequently is the thing that does not see relatives and does not bleed. Drowning death often happens in the South. Some people will emerge after death, and some people will see him drowning, but when he is saved without success, the time exceeds the time limit of his lifetime, at this time, a mop called rolling fishing (it is a fishing tool) will be used to salvage the corpse. When the body was salvaged, there would be many holes made by rolling hooks on his (her) body. If his (her) immediate relatives were nearby, blood will be left in these holes on the spot, but if relatives are not present, he (she) will not flow out, which is very strange. Su Su mentioned in my memoirs, he was born in Suzhou and drowned in Suzhou. When his family learned that, they rushed from Shanghai to Suzhou. It was nearly ten hours before they were salvaged, the wound of rolling fishing began to bleed. Because I have heard more about this kind of thing, I am also interested in it. I think it must have something to do with genetic information. In some cases, it will send a message for you to sense. I think human beings know too little about themselves, and many new disciplines need to be established. The country is becoming more and more open now, and the national strength is also increasing. I think in the near future, our country’s research topics will certainly catch up with developed countries and enter the forefront of the world. Young people should work hard! The world belongs to you.

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Psychological

A small house, a bed, a table and a chair. With great interest, sitting at the table was full of graffiti, which had nothing to do with the future and destiny. Sleep when you are tired, without sunset or dawn. I am eager to travel without an end point. Carrying a traveling bag, one’s home is in the bag. Don’t think about anything, no tears, no sadness. Strange cities, villages and faces. No one asked where you came from or where you went. Walking all the way, I won’t write down anything and have no memories. I always want to take everything up. My heart is not a stone, so I can’t be warm. I want to have a special home. My home does not need to be so splendid or rich. A rural mud house, or a shabby room under the sun, with few tableware shining with luster, clothes always emitting the smell of the sun, and the house is full of books. My family and I enjoyed it. I tried hard to go to the end of the world, and tears spread all the way to the railway line. It rained for three days and two ends. With my tears, I was in a terrible mood in the humid climate. Busy and nervous work temporarily eased my homesickness. Melancholy ever. An unexpected snow came unexpectedly. It was surprisingly cold on the snowy day. Some bought heaters, some bought electric blankets, and some bought hand warmers to carry with them. I am not prepared for anything. At night, the temperature dropped to several degrees below zero. The cover on my bed was very thin. I was frozen and had difficulty breathing. I felt like I was going to die. My teeth were clenched tightly at that time, and I hope it could be frozen harder. In the dawn, my body was in a state, and my right leg became numb and frozen. I went to the office and baked it with a heater. My blood vessels were exposed red like earthworms. In fact, I knew that I was at a loss and didn’t know where my heart was. But what flashed in the dream of the soul is the familiar strangeness, unfamiliar familiarity. Finally I went back to my hometown. Now I am still longing for my home.

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Screens on gecko

[Introduction] I really don’t know how much patience this geek has to stick to every night in order to survive. Looking at the calm and self-contained expression of the geek, I was really a little awe-inspiring. In order not to disturb this new neighbor, I slowly drew the curtain. In the evening, after finishing the copybook “Preface to Orchid Pavilion” and washing the writing brush in the brush wash, I was preparing to read a book. By accident, I saw a geek lying on the outside window screen. The geek is about 10cm, motionless and concentrated like a handicraft. The flat-pointed head, white belly, slender tail and even the toes of its four feet are clearly visible. Unexpectedly, I could watch my new neighbor so closely tonight. At ordinary times, most of the things I see are geeks moving on the wall, and it is not easy to see its white belly. As for geek, my old family is called Scorpion Tiger. I remember that when I was young, I once learned a text named “little geek borrow the tail”. After learning the text, I realized that the end of the geek was actually a kind of self-defense. When it is pulled by external force or encountered enemy damage, the tail muscle contracts strongly, which can make the tail fall off. This phenomenon is called self-cutting in zoology, and still has memory till now. In my impression, there is a lot of kindness to geeks and they never hurt them. There was a vegetable field outside the window, because the room was lit at night, and there were many small moths outside the window screen facing the light, trying to enter the room. Reluctantly, a thin window screen blocked their road of longing for light. Perhaps, this geek found this good place, so he entrenched here. Therefore, this window screen became its territory. In the daytime, the geek will hide to raise his spirit, and at night, he will quietly come out for activities. It seems appropriate to describe it by day and night. Of course, in order to have a good meal, the geek also has to pay the price, that is to have enough patience and sensitive reaction speed. Observing and observing, and then attacking like lightning, this may be the magic weapon for survival of the geek. Thinking of this, I was also interested. I put down the book in my hand and leaned forward to stare at its hunting process. One minute, two minutes, five minutes, ten minutes …… my neck was a little stiff, but it was still motionless, always keeping the posture of attacking, so calm. Some of the small moths beside the window screen are crawling, some are flying, and they are completely unaware of the coming of danger. Suddenly, a little moth was firmly bitten by it. I rubbed my eyes and saw what was going on. Maybe my reaction was too slow. Seeing it enjoying the fruits of victory with relish, I also gave it a long sigh of relief. Let alone, in this quiet summer night, on this inconspicuous window screen, there was such a quiet killing unexpectedly. I really don’t know how much patience this geek has to stick to every night in order to survive. Looking at the calm and self-contained expression of the geek, I was really a little awe-inspiring. In order not to disturb this new neighbor, I slowly drew the curtain. Lying on the bed, the concentrated expression of the geek still appeared in front of me. I thought that the impetuous self should also learn from the geek. Focus on one thing, then success will not be far away, I said to myself. —– I can’t stop talking, the other side can reach! 2011.7.26 night

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Lost Time

There is an old willow tree in my kindergarten. Although it is close to the winter season, it is still luxuriant and luxuriant. Under the willow tree, it is children’s favorite place, and also my favorite place — Qiu Qian Jia. Today’s sun is very good. I sat on the swing, and the sunshine shone on my body through the willow branches. It was so warm that I couldn’t help closing my eyes, and my memories also rippled with the swing. That was when I was young, the yard of my grandma’s house, I lay under the grape shelf, and the sunshine shines on my body in a trance through the grape shelf. Just like now, I always close my eyes and feel that kind of hazy and cozy. I really have a trance feeling, like being in a paradise, letting the sunshine open my eyes freely, and running happily all over the garden. Once upon a time, I also had such a pure age. Once Upon a Time, I also have such a carefree childlike innocence, however, everything has gone away, just like every time I go back to my grandmother’s house, I have never seen the fantasy of the childhood grape shelf candy paper until now, I also think Hainan will be a beautiful place. The first time I saw Hainan on the map, I was full of reverie about this distant place. However, in any case, I can’t have the feeling of being personally on the scene. Until one day, my father put several colorful candies in my palm. Although I couldn’t recall the taste of candy, the colorful transparent candy paper enriched my whole childhood and my initial imagination of Hainan. I lay on the ground, looking at the clear sky. Take a piece of candy paper and look at the sky through it. I feel as if I am lying on the soft beach, as if I have smelt the aroma of coconut trees, and as if I have heard the whisper of the sea, the singing of Haiyan occasionally, I will stack all kinds of candy paper together to see the surrounding world, like a picture scroll, like a dream, real but unreal. When I grew up, I knew that Hainan and I were no longer the distance that could be seen by a few pieces of candy paper, but once she appeared in my mind so clearly, let my childhood be so colorful. In the year when Prince Charming graduated from primary school, my deskmate was a white boy, chubby, with pure and bright eyes, and loved to wear pink or bright yellow shirts. Even in hot summer, it is clean and refreshing. I called him Prince Charming in my diary, so that I haven’t seen other boys seriously for many years since then. Later, he transferred to another school. I felt a little gloomy and sad in my heart. Many years later, I met my present lover, and this clear feeling made me absent-minded. In fact, it has long been known that Prince Charming does not simply refer to someone, but a concept: clean and refreshing smell, Bright Eyes, warm smile, warm embrace, maybe, there is also visual freshness brought by pink or bright yellow colors, or this is just a feeling. Now, my lover is my Prince Charming.

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Accompany me to the last

In the sad autumn, I danced with the wind in the air with my reluctant leaves. I couldn’t tell the wonderful dance posture, and I felt a little depressed for several days. The wind can’t understand Ye’s sadness, just like the darkness of night and day. Hopelessly obsessed with this affectionate season, which belongs to me. Still the woman who was so beautiful and sad in those years, she only occasionally watched the flying track of the plane in the sky, imagining whether she could reach the other side of her dream by walking along it all the time. One second, two seconds, after three seconds, the white track will be fragmented, just like my dream. I can’t stand the polishing of time. The Sky is a child who likes nostalgia. She always keeps the persistence of rain, but the rainbow after the rain never knows who gave the whole sky. I can’t remember the last time when I smiled from the bottom of my heart. I felt that after a long time, I couldn’t even see myself like this. Recently, I was so busy that at midnight, I even doubted what I was doing to ruin myself. Maybe I am just looking for all kinds of excuses to prevaricate the mire in my mind, thinking that in this way, I can be myself, forget the wounds that can not be wiped out, when the night is still, when the ink color spreads out in loneliness, my mind grows crazily. After two or ten years, how many people who stay around you, listen to your joys and sorrows, and I am used to being alone, shuttling through the crowd every day, pouring in, and then burying. Everyone is working hard to live. I dare not step into your world. I don’t want to be an intruder. Seeing her passing by me holding her hand, the third party of friendship, when did I become me. The injured in love are used to licking the wound by themselves, with seawater on one side and flames on the other side, resisting the weakness lurking in their hearts feebly. Perhaps, leaving is another choice, which will only bring you harm. It is not worth doing anything. Run away from afar and do what you want. Passers-by are still showing off their happiness to me recklessly. Why should I hide in the bed and cry alone, remembering those so-called exclusive memories that you have abandoned in the dust? Perhaps, just like someone said, if you want to erase all unhappy things, the deepest thing in your memory is only the most real beauty. The leaving of leaves is the pursuit of the wind or the unreserved stay of trees. Passerby armour is still showing off their happiness unscrupulously under the sunshine, while I am still waiting for you to accompany me to see through all the scenery, see the long. The wind determines the direction of Dandelion. I will never let anyone decide my sadness. Dandelion’s purple sadness is looking for desperate love. One day, I will turn you into a butterfly, the fallen leaves are not good even for you

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Loft

I remember when I just graduated from college, I loved listening to Lao Lang singing most. Lao Lang sang in the song: I can only give you a small attic and a window facing north to let you see the stars. At that time, I dreamed that I could have an attic at any time, and I could lean against the window diagonally, look up at the stars in the sky, and play the old strings of guitar with my heart, sing those familiar old songs to friends far away. Therefore, I learned guitar. Now I have my own attic, but I have been busy in life for many years and my fingers are unfamiliar, so I can’t play the guitar any more. Qiu GE said for several times that he would come to my attic to talk about his former ideals and express the feelings of crazy customers. A plate of screws, a plate of peanuts, a few bottles of beer, and give directions to the country again, let text boosting. Unfortunately, they were too busy with each other until the end. This beautiful idea had never been realized. Compared with the small attic given by Lao Lang, I have a shortcoming, that is, Lao Lang’s attic window faces north, so through which you can see the Big Dipper, which can guide the goal of life, it can prevent oneself and friends from getting lost on the hurried road. The singing is very good, the meaning is also profound, and he also gave all of his own, how generous. Unfortunately, the window of my attic was not only facing south, but also blocked by the semicircular eaves on the top. The opposite building was stopped in the front. The sky I saw was not a large area, but only a long strip. The stars are certainly visible in the night when the weather is good, but they are squeezed in the middle of the narrow strip, the sight is oppressed, and the eyes always feel uncomfortable. Naturally, such a Attic cannot be given to others. Yongxin said it was a waste, so I took it as a waste. Uncle. But I still made full use of this attic. First of all, it is my study. The most smooth wall was made into a bookshelf by me, and rows of books were piled up. In front of the bookshelf is a long desk. This table was originally the table in the living room, because it was too big, so I had to use it for him. I once made a table tennis table, but later I still thought it was suitable to make a desk. The desktop is wide, and a pile of books are placed on the side against the wall. Beside the desk is my lover-computer. This lover has been with me for more than six years, and it has been a long time. At first it was my game tool, later it was my work tool, and now it is accompanying me to play blog together. Although lovers are old friends, they often lose temper and strike when they are not loyal. Another time, he told me that he had amnesia and lost all the information I stored in his brain, which made me depressed for many days. But now I don’t have the idea of changing lovers. After all, I I am a person who misses the old and is lazy, and it’s really not easy to get to know each other. I will change a new one, I am afraid that it will be a good run-in for a while. Next to the computer, it is the newly bought guzheng after the year. This game is easy to learn and difficult to play well. But the tone is beautiful, even if you can’t play and touch the string of the kite, the sound is pleasing to the ear. To take a step back, even if you don’t touch it, you can put it there with wooden frame and thick cloth, which can add some elegance to the attic. The computer and the zither are in a row, scattered in height, facing the round glass window of 1/4. If you look at the attic from the road, you can vaguely see them through the window. But now at night, the white curtain is blocked. The sofa was placed on another wall. Sometimes I lay on it, reading books, looking at the calligraphy and painting on the white wall, and then fell asleep. Music is naturally indispensable in the attic. In those years, the unit leader asked my staff to buy something after the decoration of the new house. I said other objects could not exist, but music must be there, which is the aura of the house. In the end, the leader did not buy a stereo for the new house. I won’t learn from him, but I didn’t buy the stereo in the Attic either. It is enough to have a computer and a speaker with a subwoofer bubble. In this small space, let go of the music, listen carefully and enjoy it slowly. The effect is also good. The attic was not big and irregular, with the high top on the sixth floor, and one corner was slanted off. But among all the rooms in my home, this was the place where I stayed for the longest time. Most of my spiritual life after work is filled in this lovely attic. As a study, the attic also has a very pleasant name called mu Xinzhai, which fits me very well.

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As pity take sight person

Time is a river, you often remember it, but it will soon forget you. Time is a gust of wind. You can feel its existence, but you can’t catch its figure. Time flies like water, hurry up and down, you will sing it and come on stage. Looking around, it seemed that only sporadic leaves were still busy. I don’t know whether they agree with the pursuit of wind or refuse the retention of trees? Whether people or things have two sides. My nature is thin and cool, and my writing style has never been separated from low and delicate for so many years. It often surprises and worries my first-time friends, but after I really understand it, everyone finds that, there are just too many years of quietness in my words. I am not only ordinary but also humble occasionally when walking in the world of mortals. In the vast world, all living beings, I just watch the poetry while eating fireworks, and capture the truth bit by bit. Ye Zeng imagined to be a plain woman and be idle on her own life. Don’t mind others’ criticism, ignore the strange eyes. As quiet as a bay of clear water, it flows freely with the mountain wind and the green bamboo; As light as a thin chrysanthemum, it stands proudly against the cold frost and winter snow. However, in such a city where both cold and warm coexist, with mixed sorrow and joy, no matter how hard I try, I can’t escape the invasion and favor of materialistic desires. After dinner, I log on to QQ secretly. This is my ordinary life. After chatting with my colleagues, I didn’t want to talk any more. I sang songs with soft ears over and over again and reflected on myself again and again. Although there was a voice in my ear that was entangled repeatedly: as long as one’s heart was filled with peace, no one can disturb the peace. However, the sudden desolation tonight still caught me off guard. Heart, is it getting harder and harder? Or was it washed cruelly again? Listening and thinking, I didn’t hide my sadness, but I could only bury it indifferently. Life is a combination of contradictions. There is no lack of defects in perfection, and weakness also implies in being strong. But in any case, we must let nature take its course when meeting people. If we just break the routine by impulse, it may cause unexpected disturbance. The world is slim, the tide comes and goes, everyone is a tiny dust. I don’t know how many generations it will take before I can get a passing shoulder, a period of companionship and a sinking. If such fate is easily discarded, no reason can be forgiven. Therefore, whenever I see the sunset, the drizzle, and the farewell in life or TV, I will suddenly give birth to the end of a story and a feeling of leaving love, I couldn’t help thinking of Yan Shu’s sentence. It was better to pity the people in front of me. Every time I sing, the impetuousness in my heart will cool down. No one appreciated the peanut when it was buried deep in the loess, and no one noticed it when it was covered with mud. Everything would not show its rich pulp until the rough coat was peeled off and the deep red underwear was removed. People’s mood is just like this, from obscure to pure, from gloomy to quiet, it needs a process eventually. Just like, life originally needs experience and precipitation. Every day we live in similar and different scenes. The truth is covered with smoke, and sometimes it is not a bad thing. Too serious inquiry is sometimes a kind of cruelty and harm. Flowing Light is easy to pass away, as light as clouds. There are some simple truths, and some people can’t understand the profound meaning in their whole lives. Delighted, although I am still restrained by some reality at this moment, I feel that I still have the strength to contend. Life is originally a mirror flower and a moon. I am willing to put a piece of plain, save some groundless, and enjoy the simplicity in cups of boiled water. Just because, it is better to pity the people in front of you for thinking far away from the mountains and rivers. The first draft was published on the night of 2011, 11th and 10th

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[Editor’s note] life is short, exhausting useless energy and judging those accidents that have ended will only add to my heart. The author still couldn’t let it go, so his heart was blocked. Therefore, he had the judgment of “Dream falls and flowers bloom”, which made him return to peace and face life.

1

People all have feelings, but when they have feelings, the ways of expression, transmission and release are different. I have told myself more than once that the past is the past, and I can only look at the front, not back. These days, what I am have mood is bitterness, grief and indignation, depression, and even a little pain in my heart. From last year to this year, I fell in the mood of reincarnation and got rid of myself. The old topics had turned yellow and had no new ideas. I am glad that I am reborn and can walk out of all kinds of sufferings and get a little calm. At least I still have a direction to move forward, actually because I don’t want to bow to life. Only you can understand your own affairs, and only you can solve them. If you don’t want to find a friend, get drunk and pour out happily, it is only temporary, and you still have to face it when you wake up. What else can I do? The only thing I can do is to put my thoughts and emotions into words. I don’t taboo or worry, but also give myself peace, easement.

2

When driving at night, I kept asking myself whether I was really cruel. I thought about the words that rolled out of my mouth like a lion roar in the daytime, even more ugly. In fact, you really shouldn’t come to me, no matter what kind of mentality you have, because I am afraid of this kind of game. For so many years, you are very dependent and cannot walk out of your life. If you are calm, you will definitely not go to today, but you have given up a kind of life, a man, what else can I miss. I said, I am not a thing that comes at once and is ready to go. I also have emotions. A broken heart, broken heart, can I recover?

3

Some people say that life with ups and downs is wonderful, but in fact it is not. There are too many scars and the healing process is too long. I am willing to take my child to live a peaceful life and pack up the schedule that belongs to me and my child tomorrow. I never regret what life gives me, nor blame anyone. I blame myself for everything, but it doesn’t mean that you are right. Only in this way can I feel at ease, only in this way can there not be so many secular hatred and evil. What can I do if I complain? What can I do if I hate? Life is not life day by day, but I beg not to disturb my life and let me be quiet, let me calm down and do something practical that I think is meaningful, because I still want to live. I put myself to death, just don’t see you hard, or that sentence, as long as you live well, this is my original intention, my blessing, as for me, that’s my business.

4-

I asked myself why I felt heartache? It is not love, but the involvement of a blood relationship, because I respect this fact, which is also an eternal fact. You have to go well, not for anyone, not for yourself, but for your children. Several years later, I don’t want children to see your unhappiness. You said, we can still be friends, my heart can be done, I can be sincere to other friends, not necessarily can’t be so to you, but you have to put down your heart. In the journey of life, I took you through a journey and got off. You still need to move on. You may also walk into the desert and the dangerous beach. You need to be strong. Only by being strong can you win. If I really need my help, as a friend’s hand, I can still stretch out, just a friend.

5

Some people who are familiar with me advise me not to be softhearted. This is not the problem of softhearted, but the problem of people’s hearts. I don’t want to see the sorrow of women, let alone the person who once passed. What I am? I once said, if you don’t become a Buddha, if you become a demon, I thought about giving up by myself, but my heart resisted. Be kind to others and be kind all my life. How far can I carry my thin shoulder, how much can I bear, how much can I bear, why bother about those indifferent gains and losses. Life really depends on self-enlightenment, putting down your heart and giving yourself a direction. You are no longer a child, and you are not alone in your life. I am still a man, and I don’t want to make mistakes that seem to have no principles under the initiation of lust, similar to the original impulse. We are friends, and I can face you cleanly without any entanglement. This is my bottom line.

6

I regret my rudeness. I’m really sorry. I may hurt you, but you don’t know that the scar I just healed is still torn by you. Good and bad men all have temper and character. I am people with temperament. These years, it is just a temporary grief and indignation that is hard to contain. You don’t need your understanding, as long as you know it.

7-piece set

I don’t want to talk about the past anymore, and it’s useless to say it, let alone to say who is right and who is wrong, because I said there is no right or wrong in marriage, but only two indissoluble lines are parallel. You don’t need to slander my emotions any more. You don’t understand me when you see flowers or flowers or fog. Life is short. Exhausting this useless energy and judging those accidents that have ended will only add to my heart. If you have to remember, choose something good from it. It is impossible that there is no memory that once smiled brightly. I don’t need candy or poison for a while. I’m really tired these years and have no energy to play games. I thank you for giving me the life in my life. I will be kind and cherish it. When I go to the edge, this is the driving force for my survival.

8

I laughed at myself and couldn’t see through life, but I could calm down my life. Fame and wealth were not what I needed or what you called my pursuit. Even if the green vegetable radish egg soup makes my child and I live a peaceful and stable life, this is already my great fortune in misfortune, which is exactly what I call happiness. I don’t want to read your slandering text messages any more. Your miserable words fade away gradually and are replaced by maturity after years of hard work. I don’t despise anyone, let alone you. You will have your world. I also believe that your world will be more wonderful, but I want you to go all the way. You won’t admit that I used to pave the way for you. This is what I should do for my husband, and it is also obligatory to do. Although it is over, I don’t want to see your failure. Just like I saw the success of another person, I was not jealous but gratified.

9

I shouldn’t have written these in my own space, but only here is the final destination of my heart. I know that you will come here sometimes. I welcome you, just like my friends from other networks. I wrote down these intermittent words, opened the blockages in the hearts of these days, and let myself return to peace and face life.

10

The road ahead is far away, we respect each other, cherish each other, and go all the way!

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