Month: January 2015

First Anniversary

Another year later, I came to that intersection again, and the coffee flavor around the corner was still “the first anniversary”. Listening, it seemed that I was standing on that street corner, but there was no coffee house in the city where I lived, even no Western pastry house that could smell the faint fragrance at the door, inevitably, a little romantic complex is missing. It suddenly occurred to me that eason mentioned in a song: the city where I live never snows. Full of silence and loneliness. At this time, I felt much relieved in my heart, at least this small city did not have such a feeling of loneliness. Open the post bar of the school, there are a lot of consulting posts on the home page, just like last year now, but now I am more of a spectator, no comment, no message. The first one took up his backpack and left the dormitory. He was still asleep when he left. Xinyu hasn’t got up yet. Although he started for the second time, I always joked with him that I could go home first if you left first. The train in Urumqi needs a day plus a night. Er Hao always asked before, “Do you think if you left our dormitory again because of the arrears? If you don’t go home, he begins to habitually care about the basic security of daily life. For this kind of problem, the progressive youth like us still positively enlighten and pacify him based on the principle of education-oriented. Hua Zai said, remember to call me when you come back to play. So when the convener played ball, he added a signboard, and everyone who wanted to single out Hua Zai went there. That afternoon, Hua Zai could at least shoot his aunt in slippers into the hollow. The egg had changed his girlfriend unconsciously, and I still left the image on his former girlfriend. Beibei can finally evolve the long-distance love into the same love during the holiday, which is a happy one, two, three, four, five, six, seven. My mother-in-law also sent a text message for a while, nine times out of ten when chasing women. Hua Zai said that he was chasing a capital people now, and we were all happy. Hua Zai said that there was no way. People in the capital were everywhere, and we couldn’t do it without chasing. Seeing Huazi, I suddenly remembered the machine gun of Daming Hupan, but huazi was going to chase the people of the capital now. Gou Zi and Tai Meng haven’t come back yet, but I won’t be there when they come back. There is an abstract meaning that the king gave birth to me, but I gave birth to the King. It suddenly occurred to me that I had seen beautiful micro-novels. I was about to graduate. The boy always secretly liked the girl, but the girl didn’t know. One day, the boy talked to the girl, but found that the girl listened to the headphones and did not respond. So the boy began to say something in his mind to the girl he couldn’t hear, for a long time. When he finished his words with relief, he found that the girl had already burst into tears, stood up and ran out, leaving only the mp3 removed from the table and the pause button pressed on it. Very beautiful feeling, I like it very carefully, unknown. How many people stick to the similar insistence, but they are dead at the end of youth again and again without any reply. What is happiness? Happiness is what you like, and I know. It is written in the lyrics that you will read every blog anonymously without asking about your ups and downs. But one day, I suddenly found that the blog was not updated and dynamic, day after day, as if it disappeared. Don’t write for you, why be sad. Maybe what I want to see is not a word, but a living person. Another word suddenly occurred to me. I was most afraid that I had already determined myself in this life. Without you, I suddenly heard your news. Sometimes it is really better not to see for a long time. Yao Ming still didn’t get through the injury after all. Watching the video made by CCTV, there was an impulse to cry. The picture was scene by scene, about rockets and Yao Ming, the background music is aville’s imissyou. I also remembered the video I had seen before, don tletmego, don’t let me leave, full of reluctance and helplessness. Sing to Yao Ming, sing to the red country. At that time, the Rockets and boss Fu could hit the bully for Yao Ming. Later, they were separated, and each of them was their own. Sometimes, they forgot that the Frank boss Fu would stretch out his hand to clap his hands when Yao Ming was free-throw, empty, and no one responded, he took back the redundant left hand by himself. At that time, the rocket also had wheat, the peerless genius who once touched God, stopped killing people and held the ratio of falling buds. But, then. Boss Fu was wandering from place to place, wheat was jealous of talents, and Dayao retired sadly. I don’t know how good he is in Phoenix. Head, can’t you remember whether he is in the Pacers or in which country’s league, Alston? It is estimated that some children will not remember. Now, we can never go back to the past, and all we can do is to vaguely recall. I will still watch the Rockets, regardless of their ups and downs, even if they still like the bottom of the alliance one day. Just take it as a habit, don’t want to change it. The sky is extremely cloudy, and the clouds in the sky are also low and very beautiful, which is contrary to the normal situation in the hot evening in the past. The wind blows, there is no wind chimes by the window, if there is, it will be very nice. Put down the mouse in your hand to close the window. When the wind stopped and the rain came, the rain poured down, and returned to the chair to continue my mouse life. The drips on the window became smaller. Walking to the window, looking west, the Red Sky and the buildings in the distance were reflected in red and dark. Suddenly my sister exclaimed: brother, look over there. I turned around and saw a rainbow….

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Diary, the home of my soul

My friend once told me that she was very unfortunate. My father passed away and was about to get married before the college entrance examination. My eldest brother left her early because of illness. Yes, every family has a hard book to read. We are all ordinary people, and no one can avoid the sudden unfortunate events in life. However, we should learn to be strong when facing these many misfortunes, only by being strong can we correctly face all kinds of setbacks in life, overcome difficulties and become a warrior and a strong person in life. My friend is unfortunate, and I think I am more unfortunate than her. I lost my mother when I was young, my only younger brother got mental illness, and my nephew also got a disease that can’t be cured in the world till now, he could only sit in a wheelchair all day long. My little daughter has not learned to walk due to congenital dislocation of hip joint so far, so she can only be wrapped by thick plaster. The misfortune of lying in bed all day long often makes me feel helpless, sad and painful. I don’t know what pain is in this world? Maybe unspeakable pain is called pain. Because of the pain brought by misfortune, I often fall lightly in the corner of no one. When I am alone, I often keep asking myself, why did God give me such a life? Is it destined that I will live in helplessness, pain and anxiety all my life? Is it necessary for family members to go on like this forever without a little happiness? The Lonely and unfortunate childhood taught me tolerance and understanding, made me more self-esteem and self-love, and made me more eager to have a warm home. However, the reality is so cruel and ruthless. I always comfort myself and my family. People can’t live in the mud forever, and life will gradually get better, but seeing the illness of my younger brother, nephew and daughter, I always felt helpless and sad in my heart! In front of others, I try my best to hide my inner pain with happiness. I don’t want anyone to know my inner pain. I hope my husband can really accommodate me and understand me, tolerate me, really like me, and love me with all his body and mind. How I wish he can bring me strength and warmth! However, I can only live in speculation and anxiety. How I wish to get a result, which will make me happy for a lifetime, and this result will become the driving force for my progress. Although I also know that no one can support you all your life, only you stand up from the ruins of your heart. I don’t know what else can I do in such a lonely, lonely and helpless day besides doing my own job well? Maybe only diary is my best friend, because it can contain everything for me better than anyone else. She makes me keep the footprints of growth, and I have too many worries to pour out to it. Maybe I will keep such a habit all my life, diary, the home of my soul.

Like (prose editor: prose online) the snow in spring

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Dream beautiful

Away from the noise of the city; Slow down to enjoy the beauty of nature! Run crazily on the bus road from the angry traffic on the morning peak Street! Light, waiting for light, waiting for the impatience of light (Intel); Pineapple jackfruit is only one second ~ through every morning, birds laugh, rub their eyes and mouth up, life is so beautiful! da jing cheng! But there is no place to drop my feet on the 36th; Every night, in the crowd like ants, looking at the bustling buildings, how hard it is still so small! Get out of the crowded bus, get into the small hole nest rented in the cement forest, and remove the beautiful appearance; Sigh! If you want to run to the so-called success, it blurs the meaning of success! Thinking about the livelihood after tomorrow! Life can’t escape from sleeping with a pillow in my dream!

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What is happiness (another article)

[What is happiness] my brother-in-law company has set up a branch in Guangzhou. A few days ago, there happened to be someone coming here. My parents thought that it would be fine if they were idle at home, and my grandson was also at home during the summer vacation, I also want my grandson to go out for fun, or I will have no time to accompany my grandson when he goes to school outside. So my parents took my grandson and sister to Guangzhou. As soon as they left, I felt too relaxed. My husband went out to work in the morning and didn’t come back at night. I was alone at home during the day and didn’t bother to cook lunch, you can eat whatever you want. Sometimes you can get some fruits for lunch and then you can even have a meal with the leftover cakes for breakfast; Sometimes you can have some porridge cooked in the morning and the shredded mustard is so sweet. No one nagged around his ears, and there was no small tail dragging behind him wherever he ran. It was the first time for him to be quiet in more than ten years. He felt happy to the extreme and went to sleep whenever he wanted, if you want to read a book, read it. No one will disturb you. It’s really pleasant. In the evening, I will cook some more meals to cook two dishes that I like. When my husband comes back, he will have dinner early and then go out for a stroll. It is really a rare world for two people. I went out after dinner that day and saw a bunch of big table tennis grapes selling two hundred pounds. I stepped forward and picked a small bunch of grapes which were more than two Jin, carry home happily to relieve my appetite. One day later, I bought a small Hami melon and ate half of it, which made my stomach uncomfortable. A person picked and ate grapes and Hami melons, and his stomach was bulging. He couldn’t eat any more. He touched his stomach and saw that there were more than half grapes and half Hami melons. At this moment, he suddenly felt so lonely and sad for no reason: I thought that if my son was at home and his granddaughter was here, it would be strange that this bunch of grapes didn’t grab any light. At that time, the family was competing for things with two children at home. Don’t be too busy! After dinner every day, my granddaughter would pull my aunt to go shopping in the supermarket, strolling in the street and strolling in the square. When they arrived at the room, the two children grabbed TV and chattered on the bed until midnight, when I woke up, I heard their laughter. The scene, that lively Jin how exciting! But now I am eating grapes and Hami melons alone. No one shares with me that I feel that I am so boring. Although it is a delicious fruit, I still feel that it is tasteless. All of a sudden, I feel that happiness is not just about being quiet alone. We all have our own families, and happiness is the happy life of a family every day; happiness is that when you have delicious food, someone will share it with you; Happiness is that when you have good news, you can have friends to share it with you. Everyone’s happiness standard is different, my happiness is that my family can live happily every day and see my son’s smiling face every day. [The first day of my son’s collective life] yesterday, I sent my son to school to report for military training. During a summer vacation, I didn’t sleep late or watch TV or play games every day at home, so I couldn’t eat well, in order to get scolded by me frequently, I just said that the person was thin and tall, and I didn’t know why he felt so much. I hope he can go to school as soon as possible, so as not to make me angry under my eyes. It’s time to go to school. The composition on the summer vacation homework has not been finished yet. I was anxious with him, but he didn’t do that. It was really that the emperor was not as anxious as the eunuch, just tell him that your own business is up to you. Anyway, it’s you who are going to learn. We are also glorious if you are good. If you are not good, the first thing you feel embarrassed is yourself, mom, I have done my duty to you. Whether you are good or not depends on your own creation. I was too lazy to brush my teeth at home in the morning. It was hard for me to brush it once, and I had never washed the clothes myself. He specially asked him to wash his clothes overnight. I said that you should not make any jokes when you arrive at school. He told me confidently that it was OK, and I would wash it. In this case, I have nothing to say, just worrying that my son can’t adapt to the collective life of the school. After having lunch yesterday, our son took some simple daily necessities to send his son to school. The school has a large scale, and the number of students is also the middle school with the largest number of students. There are 20 classes for freshmen in the first year of this year alone, and each class has more than 50 students. We went to check in, got bedding, found the dormitory, and everything was done. When we bought something outside, we saw the children were all sitting in the classroom. The teacher in charge of the class was talking about some precautions for freshmen and arranging students to do class hygiene work. After that, I saw my son running to the dormitory to get a towel saying that the teacher taught them to fold quilts and fetch water with a basin. Soon I saw him coming with a pot of boiled water. The dormitory was on the fifth floor, it seems that he runs quite diligently. When we held a parent-teacher meeting in the classroom, he was still looking outside the window. At this time, I found that his clothes had been changed. Through the window, I sent him an expression of smile and praise. After the meeting, he walked out of the classroom and said beside me: Mom, I ate six yuan for dinner, and I also need to swipe my card to take a bath. Then he took out the card and shook it in front of me. What about your clothes? I have washed it, there are a lot of soap bubbles, I have used water for several times. We walked to his dormitory as we talked. When I arrived at the dormitory, I saw the washed clothes and socks hanging neatly on the hangers, and the towels and basins were put in the corresponding places orderly. I felt that my son was pretty good, and his ability to live independently was beyond my imagination, I thought he was too weak. There were six children in a dormitory, and we got together. It was very lively to talk to each other. My son who was very introverted and silent usually talked a lot among my classmates, which really opened my eyes. Several partners strongly recommended their son to be the head of the house, but the son refused. I persuaded him by the side: you just rush to be the head of the House and serve others more, so that you will be happier and happier. My son still tried his best to push him off. I was relieved to see that my son could be so happy in the group without taking care of him. It was getting dark, and I was going home too. I told my son to let him take good care of myself. He smiled and didn’t rely on the sad expression at all. He Said generously: you go back, I know. I was relieved to see my son like this, and I was even very grateful for having this military training. A few days of training will surely make my son more sensible.

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Heartache 2009… Let all sadness end…

There are so many people and so many things in life all of a sudden. In 2019, some stories are doomed not to last forever, some people are doomed to only be used to recall, and some immature love and love can only end with tragedy, and we will gradually get used to a person’s life, and get used to listening to songs and walking alone. I think I am used to the days without you. I once wrote this sentence: flowers in spring, fruits in autumn, how can I live without you? I didn’t have time to feel sad and heartache. You turned around and left me a blurred figure. I didn’t cry but squatted down and hugged myself and buried my head deep into my knees, I don’t know if the tears flowing out will condense into sadness? We can’t get rid of sadness in writing, because we are used to leaving our own shadow in words. Every sad word is lonely, and we still stubbornly think that is the main melody of our life. In fact, we are just wayward and stubborn children, thinking that everything in this world is so simple and beautiful, but we are so suspicious and complicated in the emotional world, just like what you said to me N years ago, how could you trust others easily if you didn’t even believe in yourself? Maybe after experiencing too much pain and betrayal, we have to be careful and live with masks. In fact, who knows the vast white in our hearts? Taking off our strong coat, we are nothing. Who can understand these? As long as you are happy, will the pain really stop? Is this world wrong or are we Young wrong? Maybe we are all right, but love is wrong. Flowers bloom and fall, clouds roll and clouds fall. The origin and fate destroy everything. Everything is destined to be a good destiny. No one can blame no one, no one can blame no one, it is just a reincarnation. Some truths will gradually be understood as time goes by, and they will gradually understand when they begin to know. 2009, I realized that it was useless to ask for what I didn’t do. 2009, I learned to wait in the streets full of night, and 2009 began to feel that I was old and often recalled the past, 2009 become good for you, put down your self-esteem and collect your willfulness for you, 2009 the song of falling in love with huanzi forgot Zheng Yuan’s voice, 2009 I experienced the first real parting in my life after the college entrance examination, 2009 the first time I played in an Internet cafe till dawn, I just stared at the computer screen and burst into tears. 2009 I felt extremely lonely in this strange city, 2009 I understood that I am a woman who didn’t belong to love, 2009 I am so lonely and sad, 2009 I grew up and gradually understood that I was destined to pass by you. 2009 I have many friends, but it seems extremely calm to see them leave me one after another, 2009 I want to sleep in winter maybe only by choosing to sleep can I forget that wound and bury that love, and can I end all this. 2009, I began to have stomachache and cry in the quilt alone, I began to use my mobile phone to resist the painful stomach, looking at the so-called distant place with no expression, dreaming of escaping. Too many wounds and pains laughter and tears will become so insignificant with the passing of time. 2009 please allow me to forget you. I thought we would be happy all the time. In that wild flower season and rainy season, there was only me and you all over the world. You once said that your world could only be pieced together by me. Only I could afford your happiness, in fact, no one is the only one, not the final one. Some people are just passers-by, some things are just an episode, and some love is just due to loneliness. We raise our heads and smile and wave our hands, so we are all free. There are too many stories in our lives that are just episodes, your loneliness has nothing to do with me since then. My life has never been with you since then. Who makes who suffer and who gives whom happiness? From then on, who will care? Giving up is a way to live for each other, and forgetting is a redemption for ourselves. From then on, we have become strangers. 2009 let everything end…

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Waiting

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People • Lingyu • Dream • Still

[Introduction] wandering, the years are still the same, ignorant, and the people are still the same. Wandering, life is still, hesitating, Lingyu is still. Struggle, dream is still, sigh, Shaohua is still. I am hoping, the future is still the same, I am remembering, and the words are still the same. The common people and Lingyu will not let the arrogant people return to Zhao after talking on the paper, let alone the eloquent people see the castle in the air when they drop the whip. We walked all the way, walked through countless turning points of life, said goodbye to the ups and downs of the time, slowly leisurely, hurriedly, found reserve and character, grasped dignity and piety, the ups and downs and changes as well as the surprises of the years alternate in obscurity. However, even if we are tired, have we ever talked about it? There is no complaint in life, but only the silent bearing behind the nature. There are some pains, which can not be interpreted by bitter wine, some loneliness, not exposed by cigarettes, some sorrow, not taken away by music. However, behind letting nature take its course, what we choose more is our own grasp and choice. Some people choose fame and wealth, some people choose ordinary downfall, and some people choose the show of peaking, some people chose three religions and nine streams. No matter how you choose, the road is sad, and you have to walk by yourself. We have experienced the aging appearance of years, seen the bright smiling face of Rainbow, immersed in the sad and melancholy river, bathed in the sad and painful eyes, paved with thorns and distant places, however, it still seemed so misty and rainy. We wore helpless glasses, penetrating the veil of reality, criticizing each other’s boundless dreams, either the grass grows and the warblers fly, or the flying of the sky, or the dream of Huang Liang. However, when I woke up from a dream, the tears had not yet flowed out. No matter how round, jumping and flying, the tears on my cheek always poured out the frustration and depression of you, me and me. Looking back once upon a time, I missed many choices in my life and missed many chances of gifts because of my hard life. I really don’t know whether my present life is the happiness of the future, I only know that the dream of going through wind and rain is always so profound, maybe it is just like tears when lovers are separated, crystal clear, but how to wait for the beauty and surprise of meeting calmly. Youth is easy to die, and youth is hard to return. However, it seems that I am gradually getting old in the erosion and reincarnation of years and hardships. Those marks and traces impudently lash the soul like a sea of vicissitudes, it turned out that under the oppression of the rolling world of mortals, I could not go back to the laughter and laughter of my childhood for a long time, just like walking with broken dreams, walking so far, approaching today’s desolate home. Some people say that it is not unfair in this society, but people in this society. I never expect to get fairness. I only know that I have been working hard to save the unfairness of society to me under the stage. It is the patent of some people to step up to the blue sky, but I admit: I have thought about the hot wind and the smooth sailing. Hedong in the Thirties, Hexi in the Forties. Maybe I am not qualified to accept this sentence after 80 s. I don’t know the perfection of the world maybe just like I don’t know the darkness of the night during the day. I can’t afford the time difference of fate, so I can choose to escape. Some people say that every life in this universe is a memory of the starry sky. Because the beauty and magnificence of every meteor is the last beauty and struggle of every universe life. I am one of them, but I haven’t crossed it yet. Maybe these are the two perfect sides. Just like the poet standing on the horizon of Heaven, the rising sun is enchanting in the morning sun, but he sees the starting point of life. Therefore, I remembered a sentence: life is on one side of the sunset, and heaven is on the other side. I, who has always been a man of temperament, can only wander on the boundary line to understand the interpretation of life. The witness is my meteor’s track of changing stars when it is easy to live in cold and hot weather. Longing for happiness and happiness can also bring happiness and happiness to people around you. Hesitating, the years are still the same, ignorant, and the people are still the same. Wandering, life is still, hesitating, Lingyu is still. Struggle, dream is still, sigh, Shaohua is still. I am hoping, the future is still the same, I am remembering, and the words are still the same. However, only the most real and beautiful one ever was not the same. (March, 2011, Kunming)

Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring

Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring…

Waiting

Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain…

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On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites…

Read The Bridges of Madison County

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Sick time

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Rhapsody

My head was a little confused, heavy and heavy, but I didn’t feel bored at all. Lying in this small hospital where birth and death come one after another, the baby’s crying and mother’s lullaby are aroused by the ears many times, which is the beginning of life, and I will be the end of life. My short body was lying on the white bed sheet. There was no dark clouds outside, and it also seemed to be extremely dead. Maybe it was because of too many people, a piece of stuffy. Some of them did not fall down with tears, and some of them were afraid of waking me up and talking softly. I danced with the hands of God and saw each of them, just like a close-up in the movie, and saw every face clearly, each face worried about me gave them a half smile. At the next moment, I tried to touch my mother’s tearful face, and under the effect of gravity of the Earth, I made a free landing-like movement. The doctor solemnly declared that my life was over, and the room immediately began to boil, the wolf howled, the moment came when I swung and cried with my body in my arms, and the moment when I cried with my hands in my arms, please don’t have to install a pacemaker on me, don’t hit my chest, don’t artificially renew my life, please remove my body from this bed, use the things left by my body to help those who need help as much as possible. I cried miserably. My soul was moved and cried without scruple. Listening to the crying, looking at the tearful faces, I really want to wipe away the tears on their faces and hearts, lift them up and tell them that I will be very good, not the so-called death, but the temporary departure, everything has not gone far, the white clouds floating smiling at you, the stars blinking at you in the dark night. I didn’t tell you my feelings directly. When I was a child, I heard from my mother-in-law that people in Yinsi should not talk to their relatives at will, otherwise they will take you away. I don’t know whether it is true or not, I don’t want to take this risk. This idea came to an abrupt end. I ‘d better see it in my dream. At the last few moments in the sun, she was the person I wanted to see most. My soul climbed over several cities and found her in a secluded corner. She was working quietly and gently with the fragrance of jasmine. Her calm eyes told me that she didn’t know my situation now, and maybe she began to forget me and didn’t care about anything. I followed you and looked at you like this. It was the first time I met you. You wore a simple and elegant dress and jasmine fragrance. My favorite long hair began to fall in love with you, my sincerity moved you smoothly. I met you several times in moonlight, long buildings and small pavilions. Look at me, I look at you. Remember? On a fifteen-year-old night, I took your hand and made a poisonous oath. With the hand of my son, I would love my son for a lifetime. If I broke the oath, a great disaster would come. It was me who was not good. Time went by. I had already forgotten the solemn oath of love in my childhood. Sweet words said that the so-called man would die, and the words were also good. I really felt very regretful. I had no choice but to hate the beginning. The death has taken me away, and this is the heavy price that the love oath made me pay. I don’t feel a pity, just, I should go, I only hope that you can see the breeze blowing, you know it is me who murmured. If you see the wind chimes, it is me who sings for you personally and dedicates my eyes to a middle-aged man who has never seen it before and gives his life and all his love to his mother, people who have never seen the rising sun; Dedicated my heart to the soldiers in the anti-terrorism war who couldn’t help themselves because of the injured new muscle disability; Dedicated my blood to the injured teenager in the earthquake, may my blood give him courage and confidence to overcome suffering. Take away every bone and fiber of mine, please try to make the lame child start to try to walk; Every disoriented teenager begins to lose his way, don’t lack love like Aunt San Mao, heart wander around. Explore every corner of my brain, take away every memory, and make a film show to let everyone know more about me and the tears that fell silently after each sad experience. Burn those things you don’t need into ashes, let the wind blow them away freely, turn them into fertilizer, moisten the dry land. If you have to bury something, please bury my shortcomings, my timidity, my selfishness, My blasphemy against love and my prejudice against the world. Dedicate my sins to demons and my kindness to God, and let him share with more people. Every child can run in the field bare feet; Every rebellious young heart can listen to the whispers of the Earth again

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Distance

On rainy night, Qu Yue called me and asked me about my recent situation. It is estimated that during this period of time, the content of the log and frequent updates have caused worries. They talked about a topic about body and soul. She told me a story around her. Her two colleagues, who had been obsessed with each other for a long time, had already been in harmony with each other in essence. However, because the body feels too good, it is not easy to separate. I think that’s it. Some people’s body structures are accidentally compatible. Only being together is passionate. Even though their souls are very far away. This seems to have nothing to do with the soul. This is just the simplest and most direct attraction. This attracts those who originally wanted to use the simplest word, but they don’t think it’s worthy at all. The essence of love is soul. Love is the pleasure beyond the body, the sublimation of emotion and the true blend of emotion among each other. Some people’s souls will be very similar. When they are together, they are a mirror to each other, and they can see themselves. Their souls are concerned and lovesick, crossing the distance of thousands of mountains and rivers, and mixed by love in time and space. The blend of heart and heart is so smooth. She warned me that if you only want the body of the other person, or on the contrary, you only want the soul of the other person. Between the two, it is very rare to feel the ultimate. You want everything, which is doomed to be disappointing. Yes, in a sense, our bodies and souls are lonely. Without the passion of body, we can get comfort from the tacit understanding of soul. If the soul is far away, the physical contact can be temporarily isolated from strangeness. I remember that when watching Duras’s lover, 15-year-old French girl and a man from northern China had no other way to express love except sexual affair. Because there is nothing similar in their souls, but they feel that they are deeply loved. The pain of both of them comes from the fact that when their bodies are obsessed with passion, they clearly know that their souls are far away, indifferent and speechless. But they can only pay so much. I can’t accept such a concept, maybe it is still unacceptable for a while. Qu Yue said that most people are accustomed to ordinary things. It seems that only feelings within the scope of real control are reasonable and responsible. For example, on a snowy night, two strangers met. The weather is cold and everything is cold. The loneliness of body and soul makes each other unable to get any way out. Then, only embracing and pouring out is warm. Because the two people who met knew that all of these would be fleeting, just like the falling snow floating in the wind. There is no love between them, only passion and desire, while passion and desire are disappearing at the same time. There are too few people like you, and a fantasy that cannot survive in reality, you just name it love, which should be called gentle cruelty. She said she herself didn’t think it was right for a charming and simple girl to be a lover in one of my articles. Melancholy people are suitable for lovers. Only depressed people can accept unreasonable things to the extreme. If a relationship without any ending, such a person will only hide in the shadow and keep his mouth shut. I thought of this and couldn’t agree or refute it. Therefore, I hung up the phone bitterly and turned off the phone. Thinking of that sentence: when you can’t love or hate a person, maybe, in addition to silence, you can only smile. Little Bamboo asked me whether I am silent or smiling now? I just left one sentence: everyone has such a time. You ask yourself and answer yourself. I don’t care to answer such a mentally retarded question. When I went back to Xi’an, I went to the provincial library and passed by a unique shop, which monopolized some cotton clothes exported to Japan. There is a black short-sleeved shirt with a slim-fit style, which is also a simple and solemn style. The cuffs are decorated with thin round silver buttons, which looks a little elegant. It is my favorite color, which is enduring and dim. When trying it on, the soft cotton cloth slided down gently along the naked arms, and there was a slight joy in my heart. During the whole autumn and winter, I wore old clothes, black sweaters, black pants and black coats, and my colleagues in school were nicknamed hackers. When we got home, my mother saw always complain, only 20-year-olds, and no wedding, like an adult who, not got herself up new point? Now this short-sleeved shirt, which looks old and outdated in the past, and is quite expensive, met me, a strange and unfashionable person. I took a fancy to it and was willing to take it home. It can be seen that it is lonely. It has been stained with light dust in the corner, just waiting for those who can see its charm. Love lies not in finding, but in waiting. This is a favorite sentence.

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A mood, a missing

Tonight, wandering alone in the sky of the night, accompanied by a glass of old wine, accompanied by a flute, thinking of you in front of the screen, I will walk in a thousand-year dream, looking for your bright smiling face, my heart is filled with your people, your feelings, your love and your fairy tales. All my eyes shake is your shadow, and all my fingertips move is your trace. In the words, in the memory, the winding sadness and worries spread out layer by layer. I rubbed myself into the night, and melted myself into the wind, writing a kind of mood and missing. The moonlight outside the window splashed silver glow all over the ground, which softened the lonely night and coldness. The breeze in spring made people feel lingering love. In the deepest world of mortals, I am alone guarding the beauty of time. I miss your slim back quietly, intoxicated by myself! I kneaded my love for you into a red rope, a writing brush, dipped in the Milky Way water, in the vast sea of people, I waved a deep love for you in the rolling world of mortals. Spring makes my heart sprout with deep love. You and I are destined to meet among millions of people. That is the true feeling of holding hands and dating together, that is the love of fragrance and true love like heart, I am eager to have a home of my own. I have planted 10,000 spring in my heart, looking forward to your coming. Who is close to me in a deep dream? I am the only one with the soul of flowers through the ages. Waiting for a love is a painful suffering. I think of you all night after night, waiting for you crazily, waiting for you silently. Loneliness is like a flower, and a wisp of fragrance has been lingering for thousands of years, presenting my unique elegance between heaven and earth. I am waiting for your early reunion, when is your return date? I poured One Cup after another of lonely wine and drank them all at once, indulged in the world of mortals and did not wake up. The night scattered my thoughts all over the floor, and all I picked up was my dream. A sentimentally attached, a lingering, a missing accompany me, and what remains in the years are the traces of love, hate, sorrow, sorrow and joy. Deep love, deep love, throbbing at hand makes people wait for a long time. You have your grass growing and warblers flying, and I have my long autumn days. I have missed the season of patterns, and I only hope that I can grow old slowly with you in the future days and put my eternal hope. Space is the Garden of Eden of my love, and every piece of text is flowing with my whisper, whispering carefully, that is my greeting, my blessing, my love, my tenderness, my waiting, my waiting, my concern, my lovesickness and my dream. You can open the pages in the quiet night and have a look. From the lines, you will be intoxicated with the continuous love, experience the deepest true feelings and spend a good time. Have you ever felt a heart beating for you and me?

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How many lonely feelings in life do you have to sigh

Ageless, dream. My life is destined to be wandering all over the world. I have experienced an extraordinary wandering since my life fell to the ground, gradually, I stepped on the wandering life with my wandering hard steps. I came from Shanghai, the Oriental metropolis, to Shangyu, the Dreamland in the south of the Yangtze River, and I crossed the ocean to the bustling city in the deep desert of a foreign country. I am wandering in the long road of life, full of desire for the wonderful outside world. When the lonely shadow was floating in the moonlight, when the continuous drizzle was floating from the window lattice; When a cigarette in the dead of night went out alone. I felt the boundless vicissitudes at the end of my life. I listened to the solo from the bottom of my heart, with tears falling down between my pillow, a wisp of blue silk, white hair on my temples and three glasses of turbid wine, the sadness in my heart is interpreted vividly with a lute. The moon is cloudy and sunny, and the sea is full of tides and tides. I often feel lonely and lament the ups and downs of life. Young people are ignorant and shallow sighs, young people are helpless sighs, middle-aged people are helpless sighs, old people are long-cherished wishes and unpaid sighs, and dying may be a lifelong sigh of hatred. Looking back on the past years, there is neither much painful feeling nor any speech of regret for life. Is it loss or loneliness? When my life was restrained and deep, I couldn’t enter the night scene with lights, wine, green and heavy colours; I couldn’t help sighing. When my life was bold and unrestrained, it was inevitable to be empty after the noise; I couldn’t help sighing. When my life is calm and calm, I can’t enter the strange world; I feel depressed reluctantly. The vicissitudes of life are doomed to the wandering of life. The song of mixed sorrow and joy can not flow out too much beauty and prosperity, and a person’s figure is always so vague and small, I can only sigh. God should be fair. When I chose to get, I paid the corresponding price; And when I chose to give up, I also got the compensation I deserved; When I tasted joy, but it made me remember the hard work; When I was alone in gloomy and gloomy pain, it gave me new expectations. God should be merciful. When I was desperate, he gave me new opportunities and new happiness. Life does not have the eternal triumph, nor the eternal low ebb. Life is full of passion, exhaustion and sadness. Life needs to love and live well. God let me know how to choose between happiness and depression, and learn to advance and retreat. In this sleepless night, I knocked down a row of lingering and enchanting mood with my clumsy hands. My pale words sighed that the spring flowers and autumn moon soaked tears. As time goes by, the wandering road of life is my sigh. People have to have some faith and can’t complain. I think of the heroic words of a generation of great men, which can be used as hitting water for three thousand feet and confident life for two hundred years. There is no need to sigh in life, be happy, jump the horse and raise the whip, run around the countryside to see the spring scenery. Life Why sigh, Cleave, waves, dare scaphoid head Shu mind. Life is too short, time is ruthless, Heart is restrained, calmly face life and look down on life. Stretch your frown, let the long-lost laughter spread from the bottom of your heart, live yourself, live calmly, live smartly, live colorful! How many lonely feelings in life do you have to sigh

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