Month: May 2013

Indulgence

The agreement of the past and present is just an oath. Passing by flowers, passing by you, and the story after that is just dust to dust, soil to soil. The morning when dreams wake up is a piece of warm sunshine, bright and soft. After so many years of silent love for you, I finally chose to leave and give up. Since the process and the ending have come, I will go to entanglement and even feel greedy. Preface 1 for a long time, we are just talking about love in the virtual world of the Internet. At that time, we knew a chat room. Your net name is desert solitary smoke, and my name is smoke past. Originally, I had already passed the age of wind, flowers, snow and moon, and I was no longer young, let alone love. But your appearance is like a bay of cheerful streams pouring into a pool of stagnant water. From then on, my life began to be turbulent. You said, I am like an ancient woman, tender and talented. I said, your talent and wisdom are like ropes, which have firmly bound me. During that period of time, with your company, I was very happy and happy, like a girl in love. Although, I know that there are too many cheating in this virtual world. However, you make me feel safe and warm. You will not explore my past, nor will I Explore Your Future. We are like two fish stranded in shallow water. Suddenly we think of the word “mutual help”. However, the person who is with me, not you! And the woman who respects you as a guest is not me either. Second, since we can’t help each other, we have to forget each other. The years went by gradually, but I became more and more sad. I have asked you more than once, what would you do if I left one day? At that time, my tears fell on the keyboard drop by drop, as if I heard the sound of heart fragments. You know? Since I got to know you, I have become a woman who has fallen for love and love, and since then I will never be doomed. Seeing your bloodshot eyes because of staying up late in the video, I began to feel painful; Hearing that you drove to the northeast to handle the case, I was always inexplicably worried, afraid of snow and slippery road; hearing that your heart had something wrong, I began to pray for your life silently. All my joys and sorrows were influenced by you alone, even though we had never met each other, even though we were far away from thousands of rivers and mountains. You tell me that you like to sing special love most. For special you, my loneliness cannot escape your eyes. I said, I love singing Crying Sand most. You are my bitterest waiting, which makes me happy and afraid of the future. I know that we all sing with our hearts. At that time, my mobile phone was on for you all day and all night, for fear of missing a call or a message from you. At that time, I became a soft-hearted woman, and wrote so many sad poems for you. In those years when I was busy and didn’t want to call the curtain, there was a flower growing forever. You and I started a platonic spiritual love in this way. Third, I have wanted to leave for countless times, leaving the Internet and leaving you. However, can I really forget you? I haven’t heard from you for a long time. My Sky was suddenly full of haze and Thunder. I am like a madman, constantly calling your mobile phone, but you are like into thin air, and no longer have any contact with me. In those days, my heart was hollowed out and I became a walking corpse. Lonely, confused, silent, sad, used to churning and rotating over and over again in such a reincarnation. You suddenly left, my world was dark. Finally, in a sleepless night, your message came: For a long time, there are a lot of words to say to you, but I don’t know how to say them. I’m afraid that each other will get too deep, hurt you, so I chose silence! Can you understand my good intentions? This is exactly because I care about you! At that moment, I endured the pain of my heart, smiling and letting tears roll wildly in my heart. It turns out that you care about me, and you always care about me! However, two parallel lines of love have already been separated between us. Happiness will also have a deadline. I used to think of these happiness moment can be forever, but in you resist turned leave that quarter, feel also in slowly precipitation, and then 1.1 drops disappear, the remaining memories related to yesterday also turned into fragments. The moment of happiness was suddenly put to an end, and the feeling of breaking was so strong and turbulent. I remember you said: I hope I can be happy at any time. But, can it? If life is just like the first sight, if I can, I would rather pretend to be happy in that virtual space. From then on, for whom can I sing a parting song, say love to whom, and write to whom? I really love you. I closed my eyes and thought I could forget it, but the tears I shed didn’t deceive myself. Si San Mao said: the love of some people is just a kind of emotion at that time. If the other side wrongly regards this emotion as long-term love, it is naive in itself. But I believe you are serious. Over the years, I have wanted to see you for many times, but I have been rejected by you for many times. When I heard your invitation for the last time, my heart was dead. I don’t blame you, really, it is better to miss each other in life! However, when I am alone in the beautiful scenery of Beidaihe, I will still miss you unconsciously, thinking of our previous agreement and those colorful memories, it is always clear and vague over and over again. Everything is just passing. I only have one person to collect the scenery passing. We are like flowers on the other shore, and the root and stem can never be connected. However, in that year of cardamom, who ever promised that the Earth would last forever? For several years, we have always split and merged on the Internet. Now, seeing your QQ image flickering, my heart is as calm as water, and I can’t afford any slight billows. Those withered times finally buried all my truest love for you, and we became the most familiar strangers. Now that we have become strangers, meeting is just a Grace! Looking at you, if you want to say and stop, you can only listen to your distant and beautiful songs in the wind. Your net name is Lovesickness in the wind and rain, but I am your forever lovesickness in this life? I once gave you a piece of green soil, can you still return me a piece of blue sky? Love deep without complaint! Liu Ruoying’s song rang in his ears: I want to ask if you dare to love me as you said! I want to ask if you dare to be crazy about love like me! Five because of love, so mercy; Because of understanding, so tolerance. I want to draw a game of life and death, and write an ending for our story. It’s just that the story has no ending. I think I am love you, from the beginning to the end without ending now. No matter how the time and space flow, my love grows old together with the years until my gray hair is gray. Love you, give you all the beauty of my life, then leave, let kaleidoscope shine your eyes. I often think, what will a person look like if he loses his memory? Can you really forget those heartbreaking things? So forget, will it be like ethereal again? It hurt and tired. I closed my eyes and saw two drops of crystal clear liquid flowing out. When I touched it with my fingers, it spilled all over the floor. Ultimately, life hurts. Your marrow. The night is slightly cool, the light is slightly dark, the ambiguity is gone, and the music is melodious. Maybe this life can only be recalled again and again in such a reincarnation, missed again and again, cried again and again, sad again and again.

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Listening to the gentle and lingering music from the recorder, my heart flew to the distance unconsciously and stayed beside the person who was willing to accompany me through the whole life. Dear, what are you doing? How eager you are to be with me all the time, to give me love and warmth. I don’t want to be rich and expensive. As long as you let me have the love of my whole life, that’s enough. I often think of you unconsciously. Maybe I, who once suffered misfortune, need the companionship and snuggle of my heart too much. In front of the man who promised to promise me love with his whole life, I really had nothing to say. All the tears of happiness flowed quietly in my heart. Maybe I am no longer lonely on the road of wind and rain. For many times, I feel that living is a meaningless thing. It is too tired, too tired. However, dear, because of your existence, because of your love for me, I must live well. No matter the road ahead is full of thorns or thunder. In this life, I don’t know what else I can do. Maybe I will always be so mediocre and plain, maybe I am not as smart as others, I have enough ability to help you do more meaningful things, but I like to stay together in peace. A couple living a daily life of daily necessities, Maybe it is better than rich people who are rich but have extremely empty spirit. Close my eyes and let my missing drift away with the lingering song like this. I am just longing for a kind of peace of heart, without suspicion, criticism or criticism, what we have is just mutual care and concern. Maybe life experiences are different. My strong feelings are just hidden in my heart. I hope I will bring you happiness for a lifetime. Dear, finally, I heard your call. On this night that is coming, is the city you live in already full of thousands of lights? Dear, when you left, I didn’t send you because I was too afraid of leaving and tears! Sad, bit by bit, how can you send it to each other with tears? However, when you said goodbye to me with a smile, my tears still couldn’t help coming! Dear, I admit my vulnerability. I know that you will be my constant support for my whole life. However, how can I gradually find that you are so careless after marriage? How I wish you can give me care and consideration all the time, whether emotional or life. I admit that I am love you. Every time we get together with you and we are unhappy because of some problems, a bad moment just flashed in my mind, all your advantages came immediately, driving away those bad thoughts. Although I am two years older than you, my dear, my heart is full of attachment to you! The autumn wind is bleak and the lonely lamp is sad. How I wish you, dear, come to me immediately, comfort me, encourage me and strength. For me, and for the child less than three months we are breeding in the belly! Dear, we have the crystallization of our love, but what follows is a lot of worries about whether he can come to this world smoothly and his health, how I wish he could be smart, beautiful and lively. Even if he is not beautiful, I also hope he is healthy. We should create a warm and comfortable environment for him and give him more freedom and happiness for his growth. Dear, do you know? The safe birth of a child will be my greatest ideal at present! Yes, I used to love poetry and live in fantasy. Literature is my best ideal. Although people who know me all say that my writing style is good, I find that I am deviating from my hobbies and ideals. For half a year, I haven’t written even a few words. I have lost myself in the ordinary trifles and become vulgar. But my child is coming to this world. I should get rid of some bad habits in my life and grow up with him. Dear, I hope you too! I pulled down the phone, but tears came out unconsciously. Fortunately, it was the twilight-I didn’t let anyone see it. Dear, is missing always touching your heart? Otherwise, why do you always call again and again when you are fine? The lingering song is still permeating in the room, permeating, dear, how much I want your gentleness to spend the night with me!

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